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Adrial and Dancer.. thank you so much for all your support here. This is such a wonderful safe haven. I wouldn't be happy right now in a beautiful start of something if you both didn't help me to be brave :) I hope nothing but strength, courage and happiness for you both along your paths. Blessings, loves x

When we believe the universe listens. The powers quietly observe. They show empathy. They hear our actions. They know. They understand our place and our intent and calculated, they do. They grant. They help. And, believe in us, trust in all individually, and our power. They are not judgmental. They don't score. They have gotten us and what we can and cannot manage because inherently and artistically have created. Us. And, our beauty, wholly. We are all blessed. And are stood to stand our blessings. In all places we may not understand at the time. Night, blessed H Opp fellows, friends. Love you all, always. xx

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Thanks, Adrial. I'm happy for sure.. soakin' up the love :) sharin' it too :)

Herry-My doctor actually used ankles as an example of another patient she sees. It's a crazy little skin condition :)

Yes and yes ;) It's wonderful how many people are here nowadays. Such a great community of support. Have a great day, Dancer!

Thanks, Dancer! xxx Mine actually was from a sexual encounter believe it or not. It just doesn't choose to go in the Netherlands so to speak. My doctor said it's just the nature of the virus, it chooses a spot and just stays there. I have even heard of a woman who broke out only on her ear. Crazy! I've had it for seven years this May and aside from the first time, it's always been on my arm.

I disclosed successfully. Story: I was ridiculously nervous. The making out started.. fourth date. I said, "Him (name undisclosed). I have something I need to share and it will take me being vulnerable. I carry HSV2. The herpes virus. I break out on my arm. I have had long discussions with my doctor about being on suppressive meds and knowing when I'll break out beforehand and what that would mean for my partner. My doc says there's less than one percent chance I could pass it to you. I don't want to do anything tonight because I really want you to research it until you know and understand about it. Please ask me any questions and I'll find the answer. I really think this connection will go somewhere and trust you to trust me." Next date. Him, "I researched it because I knew it was important to you. I had a call a few years ago from a GF who said she had it after me. For all I know I already do. I trust you regardless." Success. Fully in it, dating. And, lovin' it Keep hope, loves. Stay tuned ;)

Love ya, Dancer. Just started dating someone amazing ands hoping that when I choose to disclose .. he'll be that amazing. Hope you are well, friend :)

Loved reading this :)

Loneliness I fear you, although, I am not alone. I am in transition from the universe’s calling to instruct-slash-educate. I try to come upon a loving partner, but I’ve made my choices and the cards are laid in front of me; and all that’s left is my good person, disclosing my baggage – slash- self. I would adore that good person who could see past my definitive. But, I see into the mystic and it’s uncertain. It’s through that speculation that I fear more catalyzes false hope. Yearning. You may be my greatest faith or my tragic defeat. If it’s all predetermined, I wish I could flip the pages toward the ending. And, yet, I won’t sit and lament here. I won’t act like I haven’t something to give that’s harmonious here. Doing nothing.. really?? But, I want to spread my wings to fly. Alone or otherwise I want to try. I want to give toward the attempt to reach for love. I suppose that risks. The risk of being so vulnerable that it exposes everything you can’t hide slash handle, BUT, oh well. But, it exposes me for being ridiculously responsible. It uncovers my best self. ‘Cause even when I’m vulnerable, I’m the best person in the world; I’m me, honest and truth. If anything, I love me, for being my best self. Able to take rejection, and still holding gaze to the sky as a warrior. Stand. Loneliness with me and the sky in a stance fit for a martyr, channeling a heart of.. I may be unfit for a lot, but not this. This, I got. After all, I've been chosen.

http://shar.es/OMXgK Official link and thanks!!!!!!

Ha! No code .. Those that know me in this forum .. Know I'm a writer and I've promised to share my publishing at full disclosure. And, tonight I did, a second time. Thank you for your noticing ;)

No nothing at all just sharing as a proud author :)

Meditation and daily affirmations that stick - ow.ly/s5brd New post from @nicolecourte !

The guy who gave me a paperback. He's a thoughtful one. The one that wouldn't fuck for a night because he wasn't sure if he wanted to leave. He gave me a weathered paperback of poems, a favorite of his. The corners of his treasured ones were folded at the corners. "Consider it a birthday present." He said. Thumbing through the highly sexual and descriptive art, I gasped. I blushed. I sat in an airport. Confused and taken away because we have never touched to his non consent. Talk about a mind fuck.

HEART THIS THREAD :)

Boy meets woman. And, so it starts. Attraction. Connection. Could this be more? He’s free-spirited. He’s worldly. He’s smart. He’s interested. And, he’s really frickin' cute. It begins, the relationship that won’t last. Where free-spirited becomes free loader. Or, worldly, becomes uncomfortably explorative to anything you aren’t into and yet he claims he’s "open". Smart turns into I still live with my mum or I call my dog, my wife. Cute (frickin' even) is relative to his span of interest and subsequently the consequent of yours. Once the interest has faded, is there really more? No. There is not. Ladies, emotionally unavailable men are not only self-sabotaging but poison for us. Only, because they are hurtful. Self respect. Be a DIVA holding her hand up to the sky screaming, “NO” in, a rage, fight. Fight for you, deserving, gorgeous, would never do that in a million year, intuitive you. He is only temporary on your long path in many years to come. The best in your journey is yet to come.

Oh.. and btw... writers (artists actually) .. seek audience. There will be more of this type of artistry/message from me (so selfish) #writingdiva. I promise, Aimee :) Its sorta in my nature, I can't help it, (though I'm in love with it). Shhhh...don't tell :) Please keep reading, love :) I'll most definitely will be back and know you will too. We will help each other. We will become awesome friends here :) xxxooo

And, the same to you, love!!! It really is about that elusive place called love. Its compassion. Its vulnerability. Its being there for someone and you (as a participant) have no idea who they are physically. Its just what we perceive as them. This place is love. It's respite. Love you and I know struggle. We all have here. Reach out anytime, love :)

Peach- Your candor and direct wit is endearing :) Never change. x

Lelani, I loved everything you've written and soooo needed to hear that today. M birthday is tomorrow. Celebrations all weekend and no dates lol. But, honestly when I look back I guess I'm really glad I never ended up with any of them. I've had so many horrible dating experiences this year but I'm going to keep on keeping on :) Thank you for sharing. And, btw- love this: "Rejection hurts for a while but a life time of being with someone who isn't good for you hurts more. x"

Excellent article! Very interesting.

Awwww.. I am actually, cc. Very perceptive ;)

Ranting and raving about the right things :)