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I never thought I would be here telling strangers on the internet that I have herpes, but here I am. I got my results back today, positive for type 1. I felt a little relieved since everything I’ve read made it seem like type one genitally doesn’t cause as many outbreaks. Last week when the doctor suggested it might be herpes, I cried for three days. I knew it had to be herpes and probably type 2. I have gotten to a place where I’ve accepted it, although I’m sure my feelings will fluctuate about it when I have to tell a potential partner. I feel like it has helped me realize the situation I was in before wasn’t good for me and I should be more careful and more picky about who I am with. That being said, I am still looking for advice or general knowledge from people who also have type 1 genitally. Thank you in advance!

But by the doctors reaction and everything I’ve read about how an OB looks and feels, I’m pretty sure it is going to be positive. I have spent the past few days crying constantly, barely getting through the two shifts I had to work. I already suffer from depression, and the first thought I had when the doctor said herpes was that I wanted to die. That feeling went away quickly because I have a three year old who I could never leave. Thinking about him sent another wave of panick. There doesn’t seem to be any sign of oral herpes, only genital, but could I have it orally and just not have had an outbreak? I am terrified I will spread this to my son somehow. I spray the toilet seat with bleach when I use it, even though he has his own little toilet seat. I don’t want him touching the soap dispenser because I use the same one. Another feeling is that I’ll now be alone forever. I was already a single mother, and now if I find someone to accept my child I have to tell them I have herpes. I just feel like my life is over. I know this could sit dormant in my body for years, but do most people have an outbreak a few days after first exposure? I have been sleeping with the same man for a year, although I’m not sure I am the only person he is sleeping with. We were together on a Thursday and I started having what I niavely thought was mosquito bites (I live in Louisiana) down there on Sunday, and burning with urination. I researched online and finally went to the gyno this past Thursday and she confirmed what I had feared. “This definitely looks suspicious for herpes, I’m going to take a culture.” Then never really mentioned it could possibly be anything else. She prescribed acyclovir and it seems to be helping with the symptoms. I could actually walk today without wanting to cry from the pain. If the culture comes back positive, could I get a blood test to confirm a possible timeline of contracting? From what I’ve read, your body doesn’t develope antibodies for 3 months after exposure. I guess the main reason I am here is for reassurance that my life will go on regardless of herpes. Right now I am feeling completely broken, still dealing with the first outbreak symptoms. I don’t feel like myself at all. I feel disgusting and dirty. I don’t want to do anything except lay on the couch and cry. Luckily I have my son on the weekends and he has been a distraction, but it still constantly lingers in the back of my mind.