TaylorB18

Thank you both so much for your support and your advice. This does make me feel a lot better, and I will document everything. I thought that he would be more understanding and mature about it since he’s literally twice my age. I’m 20 and he’s 40. I’m not going to let this scare me from future disclosures, but I’ll be sure to disclose before of course.

I’m new here, and I’m here because I have done a terrible and unforgivable thing. I was working an event, and I met a guy. He was very sweet and made me feel like I was worth more than I ever imagined within a couple days of chatting. He offered for me to come over to his hotel, since my company was making me sleep in a tent. I had no intentions of sleeping with him, but things got intense quickly and I haven’t been intimate whatsoever in 6 months so I was overwhelmingly happy and it felt so right. The thought of my hsv 2 hadn’t crossed my mind, we had unprotected sex and then fell asleep. The next day I felt extremely sore, and then I realized I was having a breakout, and the reality hit me. I felt scared, ashamed, and regret. The next two days I went to see him but I wouldn’t let him do anything to me. I cried hysterically after each time because I had realized what I had done and that he did not deserve it. I wanted to tell him, but I was scared so l left, and I disclosed through text before work. I told him that he deserved to know I have hsv 2 and I wasn’t even thinking about it that day because it truly doesn’t effect my life and I forget I have it until I break out or I’m reminded which is not very often. I tried to explain it so he would understand that he may not have gotten it, since we only had sex once and that I never intended to do this and I was sorry to tell him after but if I didn’t care I wouldn’t tell him at all and I would of let him have sex with me again. He was furious. He went up to me at work and told me if he didn’t already have 2 strikes I’d be beat nearly to death by him, and that I’m a disgusting whore. He’s threatened to press charges and send people to my house to beat me up. I understand that if he does press charges, I need to accept that I was irresponsible. I really do hope and pray he did not get it. I need some advice on how to feel right now because I feel like a disgusting human being right now, and I’m scared for my life and my future.