Wow....I just found out I have herpes 1 a few days ago...I feel every one of your emotions... And feel like I too am going to have to get help dealing with this for life...Im beyond devastated...I'm depressed, ashamed, don't think I'll ever be happy again either...it feels like a dream...I have an appt to sit with Dr next week, but I'm just trying to get educated as much as possible until then...I just don't even want to be here anymore