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  1. Do they help too? I used to smoke occasionally and I liked the mental clarity and physical pain relief it provided, I tried CBD when I was suffering from PTSD / anxiety so I can’t really know how much it helped but it did, I mean I certainly managed to avoid going insane, lol, but I never payed attention to the effects. I maybe want to start taking it again.
  2. Lmao you’ve got a point but the two plants/plant mixes I mentioned were proven not to kill anybody’s a$$. The reason I was curious is because a microdose of shrooms is definitely not 400mg twice every day like the suppressive dose I know for acyclovir (actually one of my blood tests that I got done when I was gonna get birth control prescribed came back showing a slightly impaired liver function after 1.5 years of taking it without taking any other meds or substances). And because Ayahuasca is one dose, one time, you drink it and your immune system etc. is supposed to improve by fighting the stomach upsetting compounds of the brew and absorbing the ones that help the nerves, it probably would enable me to lay down the acyclovir for a while until my next OB. I usually respond well to plant stuff because it has all kinds of vitamines and a balanced list of ingredients, lol, I mean coffee is a better wakeup-aid too than energy drink which is basically soda with laboratory-made caffeine added... I took CBD oil for a while for anxiety and that helped a lot too.
  3. Hi all, ”a fried of mine” was very interested in psychedelics a few years ago in her early twenties. She never tried anything, though, except for Mary Jane plant infused edibles which can be pretty intense and similar to what shrooms are usually described as. Anyway, she has read a lot about the benefits of two uses for these potent natural substances. First: microdosing, as in only consuming a very tiny amount that basically doesn’t mess with your perception but can fix neural pathways that have been blocked by stress. She was quite intrigued about these studies because she has suffered from some serious stress after getting HSV. Shame, abandonment, physical pain, etc. And the worst thing about stress is that it brings on more outbreaks and pain, so it would be nice to get rid of it a bit. The second is combining medicinal use with psychological therapy in a retreat. Ritually consuming Ayahuasca which first cleanses the body and may cause vomiting, then causes insightful dream-like hallucinations and then talking about them and their meanings with a counselor. Have any of you done anything like this? Do you think it can help with the emotional and/or physical trauma of having often recurring HSV? I think a traditionally used plant is not much worse than large doses of acyclovir for suppressive therapy...
  4. I know they stop herpes from multiplying so the immune system can suppress it, but what about side effects? A friend of mine had an abdominal surgery done like half a year ago and –among many other medicine– she got a large dose of acyclovir because where I live it’s necessary for every hospital to give a cocktail of strong meds to every surgery patient to ward off possible infections of the wound while the immune system is busy with recovering. Idk about other countries tho. She said it took a few months for the meds to completely leave her system and they caused her hair loss and other problems. I take 400mg once a day for suppressive therapy and three times a day during outbreaks. Can it harm any natural balance in my body, like the absorbtion of certain vitamines and minerals or such...? I just recently stopped bleaching my hair and I’m looking forward to growing it out really long but what she told me concerns me a little...
  5. I’ve been feeling really disconnected from my sensuality/sexuality since getting herpes. It’s an STD that lies dormant in the body after catching it, there’s only suppressant medication but no cure yet, it has recurring annoying symptoms, like itching or burning ever once in a while. I was a very sensual person all my life, I was a late bloomer but I loved my body, I started masturbating when I was 18 and experimented with different kinds of stimulation for fun, I was really aware of my needs and very confident and attractive. I didn’t care much about seduction tho, so I only lost my virginity when I was 20, to a friend of mine. He ended up betraying me very badly and I fell into a period of depression/feeling unworthy/feeling disappointed. It lasted a little over one year long. During this time a really creepy old coworker asked me out on a date and I was too afraid to say no, I couldn’t set boundaries right. It was the worst date ever but he ended up taking me to his place and having sex with me while I was half asleep already (exhausted from the horrible date). I caught herpes from him. I barely remember his face now, I’m over him, but I’m not over herpes. I’ve had it for two years now, I’m 23. I used to love fooling around in public, like some light foreplay while walking at the park when no one was looking, but now I feel like I’m toxic because I can give herpes to others who come into contact with me... My guy wanted to tease me with his fingers under my panties the other day, we’ve known each other for a while and he knows I have herpes but he just has no idea how disgusted I am with myself. I hate my own pussy. How sad. My pussy is amazing, it gave me so many orgasms and it gave my guy so many orgasms too! I should see it as a warm pot of thick shiny honey but I just see it as a problem and like something I had lost.
  6. Idk about getting a culture, but it definitely can be HSV. Real ulcers get less and less frequent as time passes since the first outbreak. When I get an outbreak it’s always just itching or these small bumps. I’ve had the virus for 2+ years now.
  7. Last week I started a slightly calorie restricting diet to lose some weight before I go on holiday. Not serious starving, just cutting off desserts and stopping the constant snacking, lol. (I’m 5’7 and like 130lbs by the way so I’m normal weight but my body fat % is a bit high.) Y’all know the word “hangry”? It’s hungry + angry, and perfectly describes how the body can perceive hunger as a cause of stress. I don’t get irritable or yell at people before lunch, however, I feel slight tingling more often between mealtimes. Are any of you dieting? Did your outbreaks get more frequent or not? I really don’t want to have to choose between getting in a fitter condition and not going crazy from pain... So fingers crossed for a lots of “no” answers...
  8. This is a question that “normal” women discuss with their friends while laughing after a few drinks... But I’m infected with this sh*t, and so is my boyfriend of 2 years. So now I don’t know if he is simply too big and I’ll be better from some warm tea, or if it’s the virus doing painful things to my skin inside. (By the way, I have oral herpes too, since childhood, but it only broke out 2-3 times my whole life and only for a few hours, until I got GHSV, since then outbreaks usually go hand in hand.)
  9. If I were to break a tablet into powder and mix it with a regular chamomille cream that’s used for diaper rash and such skin issues, would it work? Was anyone else ever desperate enough to think of this and done it too?
  10. I am shocked by what I’ve heard and read. Pardon me if I sound harsh, but what on Earth are condoms for if not to prevent EXACTLY THIS? It’s unbelievable... Herpes is just an annoying skin condition, but what if someone gets HIV while engaging in unprotected sex at a festival with a stranger, or another illness with severe complications like becoming infertile? I’m sorry if I’m old fashioned, but festivals are for music and dance and creativity, not hookups, and especially not unprotected hookups. I did have drunk sex in my life, hell, I was high as a kite too... and yet I still didn’t forget about protection because it’s like a second nature to me. Bagging it up is just as necessary as putting it in. That’s it. I don’t think a few minutes of pleasure is worth being sore thorough the rest of the festival and then having to get on medication for however long... Idk about sex education in the USA (or the countries the festival goers were from) but I’m saddened by how horrible of a job it has done, I mean if they knew the risks then they probably would’ve been more careful! Anyway. The person I got the link to an article from is my boyfriend who caught HSV from me. (It was 2 years ago, I was his first but I didn’t know, he was really pushy, and my mind went into a state of shock and I couldn’t disclose or react in any way, I froze. It wasn’t rape, it was just two young and inexperienced kids having a bad one night stand with worse consequences...) I really hope he’s somewhat comforted by the fact that this is really all it takes to get the virus and it doesn’t mean he’s dirty, and that he doesn’t have to carry the heavy stigma of having it because a lot of people have it too. It’s not a death sentence, just a very common and unpleasant STD. Him and I both were really depressed after he contracted it, so yeah.
  11. So my partner who has been HSV2+ since we started dating two years ago, said he has a skin rash under his arms even though he never shaves there. He was under a lot of stress, also sweating a lot... I told him I thought it could be eczema or whatever stress related redness, but I’m not sure it can’t be herpes... Can either genital or oral herpes travel to there? He also feels itchy on the inside of his thighs and on his perineum, and has blisters too, that is definitely an outbreak. But he said he has never had blisters there, he used to have blisters on his foreskin and painful tingling on the side of his hip where I accidentally scratched him once and the virus got in the wound. All of that is gone, he says it’s like the virus is looking for a new place to resurface. Is there any research on the possibility of this happening?
  12. So I have very slight but constant prodome symptoms. One itch from the inside, like from under the skin, every once in a while and that’s it. But it really bothers me. Everything feels off down there. Interestingly —sorry, TMI— when it’s wet or I’m bathing in water I don’t experience this. I was wondering if I could ward off the symptoms by rehidrating my skin when the virus dries it, and maintaining a healthy pH balance. I’m thinking of buying one of those intimate moisturizers that women are prescribed after yeast infections and during menopause.
  13. I have read that other illnesses can weaken you and cause an OB. But the other way round... can H weaken you and make you more prone to catching whatever nasty is in the air at the time? I have had a bad caugh on and off all winter and spring so far, it was the same last year too, but not before I got infected with H...
  14. I was depressed by my diagnosis so much that didn’t disclose to my now boyfriend. I literally couldn’t speak, it was like grief. We’ve been together for 2 years, I told him about having the virus only 6 months ago. He tries his best to forgive me. But I think it’s impossible. He has every reason not to trust me again. Am I crazy for thinking there will never be a future together? I think it’s pretty much nonsense for someone to battle their own intuition and start building a life together with a person they can’t even believe. Even if we do end up finding happiness, getting married, and building a house, there’s still a chance of yelling and arguing because of damn outbreaks in that brand new house out of the blue. We could have children even, the fact that I gave him a life altering illness will not be gone. I’m 23. In ca. ten years I want a family. That’s 5x the time we’ve been together, not really a lot, it passes by faster than I’d think. I really can’t get any deeper into something that leads nowhere or into unstable happiness. And I want him to live his best life before hitting 30, too. He’s the same age as me. If he can’t be happy with me and enjoy that I am his, then the right thing to do is to leave him so he can start dating again and feeling happy and confident.
  15. This is my first romantic relationship ever, I was only ever used and abused before, but I gave him H so he hates me as much as he loves me. I often encourage him to show himself love by spending time without me when I notice that he’s getting frustrated with dating the one who ruined his health... but he takes it as an offense. So I already feel guilty about giving him the virus, and I gotta feel guilty about keeping a distance for the sake of his (and my) mental health too. It’s all so unfair. Why me? Why him? Why can’t he be healthy again, why can’t I be appreciated for once? It consumes all my energy. I am one semester late for finishing university because I literally had no mental capacity to do most of the assigned work or attend properly... I want to disappear from his life leaving no memories other than “There was once a girl I was with, I got herpes from her but I managed to forgive and move on.”... especially not good memories, I wouldn’t want him to miss me. Damn daydreams... Somebody please just discover a cure already...
  16. Hi, being the self care freak I am, I like to read a lot about ancient (or atleast less-modern-than-ordering-a-venti-of-your-fav-latte) practices for physical health. I have come across yoni steaming many times now. Yoni is the Sanskrit word for the female genitalia and has a really lovely sacred meaning to it. It’s something like “womb” or “temple”, my yoga instructor said once. So I prefer to say “yoni steaming” over “vaginal steaming” any day, even though technically you only steam the external parts and maybe a little of your vagina. I decided to just go for it last night, I’m a huge herbal tea fan, so I just made a large pot of herbal tea (with anti inflammatory herbs like melissa and chamomille) and squatted over it for a few minutes. That’s how it is practiced, you squat (or sit on a chair that lets the air through) over a steaming pot of herbal infusion carefully. Other than nice and warm and natural I didn’t feel much. Then went to take a bubble bath that I poured the tea into. Then went to sleep. Let me knock it on wood, but it really did help, my prodome symptoms have 99% gone away. I was afraid I’d wake up to an outbreak because a coworker had been stressing me the hell out all day, but my skin calmed down instead. Might be a coincidence but I definitely fell in love with this practice. Me and my pu$$y both get to inhale healthy amazing smelling steam, doesn’t get much more relaxing than that! It’s like a mini sauna, lol! Unfortunately idk about a guy version of it, I mean you certainly can try to stand above a pot with your legs apart and smooth the foreskin back if you have any, but idk if it works. Only thing I know is that you should only use herbs, not essential oils, because those evaporate quickly and can irritate your skin by kinda sticking on it. (You’d have to wash it off with intimate soap afterwards...) Any one of you tried yoni steaming yet?
  17. Hi, I have had H for over 2 years now, and I have dated my boyfriend for circa 1.5 years. He sadly contracted it from me. However, his hormones don’t go crazy every once in a month, and he’s an amateur bodybuilder which totally boosts his immune system and how fast his skin repairs itself in case of any wound or cold sores. So he almost never gets outbreakes and when he does they clear up in like a day. This is not the case by me. Even though I am on several supplements and suppressive therapy. My period always gives me an outbreak. So does sex if it’s any longer than like 5-10 minutes and any rougher than in PG rated romantic movies. (Also I’m dealing with the stress of having given the virus to him, I have posttraumatic flashbacks of the night he caught it, it probably contributes to my outbreaks.) And when I have any symptoms I of course try to stay away from sex. So basically we can only have sex every once in a while, and it will likely give me an outbreak and force me to wait another week or so. Or we use the thickest condoms out there (so it doesn’t break and he’s not exposed to more of the active virus) and lots of antiseptic lube to minimize irritation. But most of the sensation is lost that way. I actually don’t mind doing oral, I don’t hate blowjobs. But it’s not the same as full body contact and intercourse. For neither of us. Oh and let’s not forget something... romantic relationships and sexual attraction have evolved to ensure that our species doesn’t die out. So me always being “sick” is a huge turnoff because it waves the red flag in my man’s subconscious and says “she could never be strong enough to produce healthy offspring, and caring for her would take you so much time and energy, don’t even bother”... I’m seriously considering ending the relationship for good. I’m a cripple. I look like a healthy person, I’m fit, young, tall, in all honesty f***ing sexy, and I can’t even be banged without the risk of causing the both of us uncomfortable health issues. It’s like I’m a trap. I hate this. He’s also young. He deserves good sex as often as he likes. Even if he’s now damned with having to disclose. A lot of women are H+ so he might just find someone who is stronger than me and gets no OBs and is up for ditching the condom for whatever reason. I would be healthier and more confident too. I wouldn’t feel so guilty all the time. I would just pop a movie on and get the “battery operated boyfriend” out every once in a while and that’s it. And I would get less outbreaks too. The ONLY SINGLE PROBLEM IS: I love him. And he is very attached and attracted to me too.
  18. My boyfriend spend the night with my like 3 times a week. We always use lots of lube, because everything feels so great that way, lol. So there’s not much friction going on. However, I often get sore the next day. With the accompanying symptoms of an outbreak. Why??? It’s the opposite of stressful, a lot of happy-relaxed hormones are produced... Maybe his pubic hair can cause friction but I don’t notice it? Or maybe we should just keep moderation and only do it once for a shorter time? When he’s away I never get an outbreak (except for when my period comes), even if I masturbate.
  19. Let my complain a little before I share the good change that I got from this whole issue. I was never a very sexually active person, I was modest and kind and emotionally sensitive, and picky about who I’m with, oh and also very young when I caught it. I, however, think sexual pleasure and physical health are important in overall mood and wellbeing. I never neglect my body. So getting ill took a toll on me and seemed unfair. But it helped me exercise my courage to talk and think openly about “all the good things and the bad things” in sex. (Recognize the song? lol) I was never proudish, but always looked at the emotional side of sex instead of the actual facts. I wasn’t embarrased to talk to my bestfriend about how I cried from happiness once after making love with my boyfriend. But I hardly ever talked about how my lady parts were doing. I would feel awkward about it. But after my attention had to be directed to them, and I had to describe all of the unpleasant symptoms, I found my way to openly wording sensations. I can now more accurately sense and describe pleasurable things too. Maybe one day I’ll be a pro at dirty talk, who knows? ;) To me realizing it’s okay to talk about p*ssies when it’s appropriate was revolutionary... I’ve heard guys talk about what they got more often, and I realized girls can do it too. I won’t just yell “Eat me out!” (like the female equivalent of “Suck my...”) when I’m mad at someone, duh, but I feel no unnecessary shame in sharing pleasure or getting help anymore. LOL I just have to battle the virus so it doesn’t get in the way of my pleasure. No one wants to be touched when sore so yeah... I’m trying my best.
  20. Lately both me and my also HSV+ partner noticed a problem. No matter what kinda soap and lotion I use, the skin on my hands is really dry. No sores or anything. Just dry coarse skin. Like after you wash a lot of dishes by hand without a glove. Same for him. I wonder if it could be because of contact with the virus. We of course use our hands in foreplay. Or maybe it’s just the windy weather that came with spring?
  21. My boyfriend spent the night yesterday and we got intimate. We always use a lot of lube just because, lol, but there still is some friction of course. I feel slight prodome symptoms now. Could it be because we might’ve goten a little carried away and weren’t slow enough or careful enough, maybe all the rubbing can be a trigger even with enough lube? Or can stimulation itself make the nerve endings more sensitive and trigger an outbreak? I have a few times in my life actually felt sore/itchy just from feeling aroused... I am kind of sad because I don’t want one of the most basic and most intense pleasures taken away from me!
  22. 200mg Acyclovir, Lysine, Monolaurin, colloidal silver, and multivitamines. Not on birth control, it completely messed up my blood pressure so I stopped taking it a year ago.
  23. My immune system is definitely not weak, I hardly ever catch the common cold even in the nastiest of weather, I eat clean and walk a lot. But I still can count on two hands the days I didn’t have any symptom since getting infected in 2017. It’s the worse before my period, because of the hormonal changes... do I maybe have a normonal imbalance that’s affecting me the whole month? I don’t have any other issues that would point to this being the case. My weight is okay, my appetite is okay, my mood is okay besides the hopelessness of never being healthy again...
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