I found out about my h results positive about almost 2 months ago. I can relate to hoping it's all a bad nightmare. There are days when I think about the day I found out and the outbreak I had and I feel upset, hopeless, like pure shit. Then there are other days when I totally forget this even happened to me. I try to distract my mind from it as much as possible. I also plan on being alone forever maybe and I am only 27 but I just think I gotta live with this. I do focus on my health now. I really believe that it is time for me to love myself and be healthier. If you ever need to just let it out by chatting about this you can message me. Anybody that needs to vent and is reading this just message me. I didn't have the opportunity to vent much but when I did, I did it with just three people and they were very supportive.