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@RegularGuy Thanks for your advice. I'm pretty early on for stages on how to deal with this virus so any advice is welcome with open arms for me so I appreciate it. I know a cure might not come soon, but I don't see any harm being hopeful. I would never take anything not FDA approved and since having less outbreaks I'm less desperate for a cure but there are so many people out there suffering I just am hopeful for myself and them. Thank you for commenting. It has given me more reassurance that I am not alone and there are people out there understanding of what I'm going through. Cant say I don't think about it all the time and am not constantly worried about getting in a relationship but I think hopefully one day I will be stronger because of this.

So been thinking about sharing my story for awhile, I just didn't know how to process it I guess. Well I am 23 female, just graduated from college as a pre medical student. Pretty put together and focused. Never slept around in college or in general even though my friends have 20+ partners. Been to Vegas like normal 21+ girls are. Met a guy who lived there. Went on a few dates every time I would go for vacation. Moving on to 2 years later, we started getting really close and talking all the time so I figured why not try long distance dating. Went down to visit him one weekend, had sex unprotected (until the last day when he used a condom...), then we just weren't working out so we broke up before I left to go home. Then comes the fever and horrific outbreak. Got test and what do you know. What happen in vegas really doesn't stay in vegas. (Ha ha). I am the walking cliche. I told him about it and he wasn't very surprised but said he had no idea. Made me think back to the last day of my trip and he "used a condom because of friction". I think he knew and tried to time it. Guess ill never know but now I have this gift that keeps on giving. Now he has a new gf and I hope he is more careful with her... After initial outbreak thought my outbreaks would happen less, but surprise Ive had outbreaks constantly for 6 months. Finally switched doctors because my original doctor didn't call me back with results until 3 weeks after my visit (was in pain and in the dark for 3 weeks yes). Luckily I told my mom (SURPRISE she has it too) and she helped me with medicine until my official diagnosis. I am pre med so I know what herpes outbreak is don't worry. So Im still going through the mental issues with this stigma and feeling like I'm going to be alone forever even though I know that isn't the case. But FINALLY saw a new doctor who was more considerate of my feelings and pain lol and she upped my dose to 1000 mg valtrex. I have been officially outbreak free for a week and a half which is BIG. anyways I just wanted to share because I believe this as a sign as it will get better. It is more common than we think and I know I did nothing wrong to deserve the shame. If anyone wants to talk, let me know. We are all in this together. Also since I enjoy looking up medical papers, I found one saying they are starting human clinical trials for gene editing for hsv within the next two years! They are currently in animal phases but its looking promising. Medicine is crazy people and I believe there will a cure for us soon. I like this hang onto this hope to get me through hard days.

Herpes doesn't really work like that. Its possible you could have gotten it a long time ago and its just now popping up. Its also possible you got it from him. This happened to me as well, negative blood test and positive culture. Its possible he doesn't know he has it but its also possible you got it from someone else and it was latent (hidden) until now. Its a crazy virus. blood tests are very unreliable. Its just impossible to know where you got it from unless he was your only partner ever. Its more common than you think and remember that you did nothing wrong. We are all humans. We just were unlucky to contract this virus, doesn't make you less than him. Nobody asks for this.