God is not punishing you. This is a very common issue and it happens to alot of people. You are not alone in this. Herpes is a skin condition that is almost always transmitted through skin to skin contact, so I am not sure about picking it up on anything else. This is a virus, just like the cold or flu. It does not alter the person you are or ever have been. For me, I had to change my mindset about this. Focusing on what I do have and all the blessings in my life, rather than focusing on a not so bad skin condition has helped tremendously.