Ar22

I got my unofficial herpes diagnosis yesterday, I went to the urgent care after many google searches & thinking that’s what was going on. It started about a week ago my boyfriend had ripped me a little during sex, about 2 days later I had a low grade fever & was just really tired but thought nothing of it but that I may be getting sick so I went on about my days like normal. Then I noticed when I would pee it burned, BAD! So I checked down there & noticed a few sores, I freaked ! Let them go for about a day then I couldn’t take my nerves anymore and went straight to urgent care after work. Even though I was expecting her to say that’s what it was I sat & cried & prayed it wasn’t. I had her do a swab and a blood culture & im now waiting for the official results although I’m already certain that’s what it is. I called my boyfriend & he went to the ER for a blood test since testing for herpes in my area isn’t done (which I don’t understand at all!) he txt me from the ER and told me the nurse told him I couldn’t have gotten herpes from him and he doesn’t have it because he has no signs of it at all, but I still told him to request a blood test, he did and he should get his results back today. After that he told me that we need a “break” which I already know means we’re done. He’s not at all supportive like I was hoping he would be, complete opposite ! Iv done nothing but cry. I can’t eat & I’m just completely depressed & not sure where to go from here. I feel like my life is partially ruined, I’ll never be married, never have more kids (single mom of one 9 year old) I’m only 27, this isn’t fair. I just keep praying I wake up & this is all just a really bad nightmare