scaredchica44

Hi everybody. I am new here and new to this topic. My boyfriend recently tested positive for HSV but we don’t know whether is 1or 2 and his doctor told us it doesn’t matter what kind, he has Herpes. Kind of rude and leaves tons of questions for us both. I will just explain all of my concens and I really hope someone can give me some clarity. We used to always have sex unprotected. One day he comes home and has these bumps on his stuff. I haven’t been with anybody else since November and had been tested before we got serious and had nothing concerning come back. He told me he did the same. So we don’t know where this could have come from. We didn’t believe it was Herpes, maybe a rash from new baby wipes we use to clean up after sex. So we had sex with a condom and the next day he was tested. Came back as Herpes a few days later. I also was retested and still am negative (at least up to that test). A week went by and the scabs healed and the skin is smooth so we had sex really fast with no condom which I regret so deeply now. I’ve done research and learned how bad asymptotic shedding can be after the first break out. We also had sex last night and the condom broke. So I am very scared I now have been exposed and I am already dealing with bad depression. I am in love and want to support my boyfriend and still be with him. The fear of not knowing enough or even what to really do is making me think the worst and fall into a very bad depression I feel like I have nobody to talk to, can’t tell my friends or family. And he just gets angry with me when I try to tell him my thoughts about it because he simply doesn’t want to talk about it. Thanks so much for reading If you did. I am so scared