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  1. i was diagnosed with hsv1, hsv2, hpv. most people have either hsv1 or hsv2, but i have both on top of my hpv. i feel so alone in this aspect.i regret all of the things i did in the past i wish i saved myself for my amazing boyfriend who accepts me for who i am and for everything i have. i feel guilty and that i don’t deserve him. i’ve told him everything over and over because i have become a paranoid mess and he has been so understanding and caring and loving. i’m not worthy so part of me feels like it’s self sabotaging.i had a dream life and i ruined it and if only i knew what i had, i could’ve given my man everything he deserves.i wake up everyday and the first thing i want to do is disappear, be reborn and start over. i keep going to the doctor to keep ask questions and i have annoyed all of them with my obsessive paranoia and spending money on other tests.i can’t function well at work or at anything because my main priority is to monitor what i’m feeling at all times so i don’t pass it on to my love. doctor today said i’m most likely thinking up symptoms even though they’re not there. does anyone here have both hsv1, hsv2 and hpv? i need comfort.i have ruined what was a privileged, dream life. i love my man so much it hurts.
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