cw2000

Hi guys, sorry I’ve been inactive I had started a new summer job! Your replies really helped me and I’ve been slowly but surely getting my head around it. Since contracting hsv2 in late June I hadn’t had an outbreak until now which is on my inner thigh which is a lot less painful than what my first outbreak was and I feel less embarrassed than it being in my genital area. I start university in a months time (I’m from England so in America it’s college!) and I’m just hoping if I do find someone there or have any relationships that they respect it, I’m so worried some shit bag might end up telling people if we didn’t work out! I’m a huge over thinker though

I turned 18 this year, had an amazing time going out with friends and embracing my sexuality being single after being in several long term relationships. I recently went on a girls holiday where I contracted genital herpes and gonorrhoea (which they have now cured) but the thought of living with herpes for the rest of my life seems like too much to handle at the moment. One stupid mistake with a good for nothing guy who I’ll probably never see again who I text to inform and he didn’t even have the decency to reply. I feel violated and disgusting, like I’ll always be paranoid of an outbreak as my first one has been so horrific, too scared to tell a partner in the future as there is such a stigma around all STIs. I just feel like I have a burden weighing me down.