I turned 18 this year, had an amazing time going out with friends and embracing my sexuality being single after being in several long term relationships. I recently went on a girls holiday where I contracted genital herpes and gonorrhoea (which they have now cured) but the thought of living with herpes for the rest of my life seems like too much to handle at the moment. One stupid mistake with a good for nothing guy who I’ll probably never see again who I text to inform and he didn’t even have the decency to reply. I feel violated and disgusting, like I’ll always be paranoid of an outbreak as my first one has been so horrific, too scared to tell a partner in the future as there is such a stigma around all STIs. I just feel like I have a burden weighing me down.