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I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. Unfortunately I'm in a similar situation as you, except for this happened from a one night stand last weekend. I keep telling myself I wish I had the support of a boyfriend, but no situation is any better when dealing with the symptoms of this. I've been in agonizing pain and feel so alone, so I totally sympathize with you. I'm 24 and thinking of my future with this is terrifying. It started out with itching and I saw a few cuts a few days after sex (I thought it was just from rough sex) but anytime I went pee I was in so much pain and the cuts soon turned into blisters. I was given valtrex from my gyno and I've been waiting for my results to come back from my herpes culture (longest 5 days of my life). I am 99.9% positive I contracted it from this guy after I asked him if he had been testes recently. He told me after that fact that he does carry the hsv1 virus, but he didn't think he had a coldsore at the time. (It makes so mad since we had the STD talk and he never mentioned hsv1 since people don't see coldsores as STD's) I also have the swollen labia and it hurts to touch touch anywhere near there. I tried a lidocaine cream but I can't tell if it makes a difference. I've been going through a whirlwind of emotions, one second I'm feeling like my life is over and the next I'm trying to stay positive and tell myself this isn't a life sentence and I will have a bright future. Life throws us curveballs and unfortunatnely this is one we have to deal with... its the social stigma that makes this worse than it needs to be... yes viruses are bad but its no different than any other virus like the chicken pox, except for the stigma associated with it and the possibility of reoccurrence. Stay strong, I'm right there with you ❤️