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  1. So have these symptoms faded over time for you then?
  2. Hello forum I made a post recently about the constant discomfort I've been experiencing since my initial GHSV1 OB 6 weeks ago and I didnt get much helpful information so I'm making another post outlining my symptoms to see if anyone can please help me! Almost daily I've been feeling some sort of discomfort and what feels like what people describe prodrome symptoms. It's mostly a burning feeling on my vulva and sometimes sharp pains and occasionally it burns when I pee. Its mostly in the evening and I have no idea how to control it. I'm on 500 mg of Valtrex and im wondering if maybe that could be part of it? Maybe I should consider switching medications? I'm honestly so sick of this and just want my body to feel normal its also impossible to not think about hepres constantly when I'm always experiencing symptoms. I dont know if this means im shedding or still contagious? But I've had no visible lesions and my vagina looks totally normal. I've found little to no information thats helped my online other than "wait it out" But Im so frustrated and just want this to stop!!! Ive also met someone I like and want to have sex with and I want to tell him about my HSV1 but I don't know how to tell him when I'm still having these symptoms. I don't know if im comfortable having sex with someone while this is still happening!! I just want to move on with my life I want to accept myself and i REALLY just want to feel confident! Im so scared of my body and feel out of control!! please someone help me!!
  3. Ive recently been coming to terms with my GHSV1 and Im realising that its not a huge deal or deal breaker and I've slowly been getting my confidence back. One problem is I still feel like my vagina is off. Its been about 5 weeks since my initial break out and my vagina still doesn't feel 100%. It only happens at some points in the day but I still feel a slight burning sensation around my vulva and the idea of penetration during these period sounds awful. I'm on anti virals but I'm still paranoid about getting another outbreak so I feel like some of my discomfort might be psychological. Sometimes I'm fine and I feel no discomfort but this slight burning still seems to be happening almost daily and I cant figure out why. Everything looks fine down there! Ive had sex twice since my breakout successfully which required lots of lube and foreplay but I honestly am so fed up with all this I just want to enjoy sex like I did before without being terrified of if there will or won't be pain! I also feel like I cant take penetration for as long as I did before. Has anyone experienced this?? Its been difficult for me to find people with a similar experience with discomfort following their outbreak and I feel sort of broken. I just want my confience back sexualy since I just moved to a new city and am meeting new people I want to perform as well as I did before all this without this anxiety! HELP
  4. Hello forum! I had my initial GHSV1 breakout about 2 weeks ago and my outbreak healed up fine but I'm still experiencing flu like symptoms like sore joints and a slight fever on and off and HORRIBLE night sweats I woke up al last night absolutely drenched. In the last weeks some nights have been better than others but the symptoms are still there. On top of already feeling a deep depression from my diagnosis these lingering feelings of illness are keeping me down even more and causing me to withdraw myself. Has anyone else experienced night sweats?? Anyone have any advice on feeling like yourself physically again? Im on valtrex btw but I feel like I should possibly get on other vitamins to keep my immune system up.
  5. Hello forum Im a 19 year old female who has just found out that they have what is mostly likely GHSV1. To start my story I got out of a 3 1/2 year relationship with my high school love in March. I started dating new guys and as as soon as I got home for summer feel instantly head over heels in love with a great and very special guy. He introduced me to polyamory which gave me the sexual freedom to find myself and have a fulfilling emotionally connected relationship! long story short we both started seeing secondary partners (I ended up dropping mine for a multitude of reasons). I met his new girl and me and her hit it off right off the bat and started to have a sexual relationship of our own. We were all so excited to explore this new development and have a relationship blossom between the 3 of us but before we knew it...something very bad happened I noticed pain one day when me and my boyfriend had sex and assumed it was just a weird vagina thing since I had been having lots of sex. After 2 days I went the the gyno (I wasnt worried since I just got a clean std screening the week before) and they told me that I probably have herpes. I was devastated and immediately called him, he informed me that he's had cold sores his whole life and for some reason had never told me and had no idea they could be transfin this way. I called the other girl we were both seeing and she was having the same symptoms. We concluded that we both must have bee exposed it form receiving oral while he had a breakout on his mouth. I haven't gotten my test results back but Im pretty sure based on all this information that I have genital HSV1. Ive been driving myself crazy doing research and have found a lot of helpful information that genital HSV1 is less contagious than oral HSV1 and that theres a huge possibility that I could go the rest of my life without another break out. I talked to my mom who has oral HSV1 and has never exposed my dad and she has also gave more some reassuring advice,. But despite all of this I am still in a very depressive mood I always thought i would make an amazing partner to anyone and now I feel like I have this scary thing that people have to accept about me and that being intimate with me is a huge risk. Even though my boyfriend wasn't properly informed of his risk of exposure I still feel very betrayed by someone I love. Mostly I just need reassurance that my life isnt over and that this isnt as horrible as i am feeling it is in this moment. I want to continue casual dating/ the polyamorous lifestyle but I feel like its no longer possible. My life is just starting and I'm just starting to explore my sexuality and part of me feels like I'm being punished. I also have found little to no information about female to female transfer rates which makes me feel like if i continue to explore relationships with women i cant have them the proper statistics about what risks they're taking? If anyone can give me some reassurance i'd greatly appreciate it!! Ive also read about GHSV1 having such a low transfer rate this its not totally necessary to disclose? I have a lot of mixed emotions about that but at the same time OHSV1 is so common people rarely disclose before kissing and if the rates of transfer are lower in GHSV1 why are we being punished for having it on a different part of out body? any thoughts? would also love to hear from any other Poly/Lesbian/Bisexual women on the forum of their experiences!!
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