Doots1

From what I hear there are different brands I would try changing medications . Sorry you’re in so much pain I hope it goes away soon

I cry every night and act like everything is okay when it’s not. I fight suicidal thoughts everyday I need someone’s help

So I am literally freaking out and depressed. I was head over hills for a guy I thought was perfect for me. I thought he really cared about me. He stayed in a different city at the time of us talking. I felt as though he kept running in and out of my life. I wanted to be there for him so he came down to my town. I was so vulnerable because I just went through a surgery which one of my ovaries was removed . And I thought he cared about me but he didn’t. We end up having sex and immediately I started to feel weird. His energy began to change afterwards because of the way I was feeling. He started to get offended easily while I told him I wasn’t feeling well. I told him I was going to get checked and he said go ahead and he was “clean”. I got a physical again and everything came back clean but I told her to check for the H and I got my results back and I was exposed to BOTH strains. I’m so depressed and embarrassed because I heard rumors of him having this but I trusted him and I asked him this prior to us getting together and he told me that he didn’t have anything. I feel like I won’t be loved . He changed everything when I showed him the results. He even tried to blame it on me . I know I never felt this way before . I’m so confused I even thought of suicide because I just don’t want to deal with the rejection. I made a mistake to even give him any of my time. He is now trying to talk to other girls and I feel like he is just knowingly transmitting this std. I have grounds to take him to court but I really don’t know if it was him or someone from my past being that I never tested for the H test before. I thought it was apart of the physical. So now I’m here alone. I’m scared to tell my friends because they told me to leave him alone. I’m ashamed and leading to a heavy depression. Someone please talk to me . Tell me it’s going to be okay. I’m only in my early 20s and I’ve been going through a lot this year. Now I will never find love with this. I wish I could go back but I can’t . Help me please