Hi All,
Here is my story. I got divorced 2 years ago and after about 8 months, met a girl. She told me she had herpes on the first date and I honestly did not care at all. After a couple dates, I started to get pressure to have sex, although I was still unsure about the whole Herpes things. Anyway, we started sleepIng together and used protection. About 2 months in, I had an outbreak. I went to the doctor and he confirmed, although I still haven’t had the actual blood work. We had a very rocky relationship and I’m pretty sure a big reason I stayed with her was because of my fear of being alone, which I had after my marriage, but was 10 times worse now because I have herpes. She even moved in with me and my son.
I broke it off this weekend (which went horrible, mainly my fault), but am totally second guessing myself. I keep telling myself that I didn’t care when she told me and maybe there are women out there that would feel the same. I’ve shared with my mom and best friend, but they can’t really relate. I jumped at the chance to join this forum. I guess I’m looking for someone to tell me it’s okay and that I will find someone who will love me. I’m having a hard time trying to stay away from trying to patch things up with my ex, but the thought crosses my mind ever 5 secs.
BTW- I’ve had one initial breakout, very minor and nothing since.
Even though I’ve had it for 9 months or so, I’m really just dealing with the ramifications now.
looking forward to some thoughts!
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