Nitsirk20

I know this is an old post, but this same thing just happened to me. Yesterday night I had sex and less than 24 hours later I noticed an outbreak. I'm also on suppressive therapy and I also take Lysine daily. Now I'm very concerned that I may have passed it onto my partner. I'm aware that he knows the risk and is a willing participant in all of this, but I still am very afraid of giving it to someone. And I am already feeling guilty. I appreciate all the information and advice given and I just wanted to say thank you. I'm glad to have this kind of resource because all of this is very nerve racking, and reading about other's experiences is comforting.

Lol. I completely understand accepting something. But I don’t want to have to “get used to” being alone. It’s damn near impossible ( for me at least ) to hold on if I can’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. I’m kinda just really hopeless right now. And stressed tf out.

So I was diagnosed with HSV2 about 6 months ago. I was in a relationship when I found out and when I told my boyfriend he completely freaked and we split up. It was devastating. It was a really bad break-up and let’s just say he isn’t the most mature person. (Facebook is the devil) On top of all of this I’m a recovering drug addict. So who knows if I’ve had it for a while from things I’ve done during active addiction and only just recently had my first outbreak, or if I got it from him because he wasn’t very loyal during or relationship. I feel like my life is over. I will never be with anyone ever again. I feel ashamed and less than and disgusting. If my boyfriend who said he loved me completely rejected me then how can anyone new ever accept me. So for the past 6 months I have basically been a hermit. I go to work and then go home. I’ve thought about trying to date again, but then I immediately think about having to tell someone and it’s terrifying. So terrifying that I never even try to talk to anyone. Guys who ask me out I decline every time even if it’s been someone I’m interested in. I completely shut down. All I do is cry. I’m getting more and more depressed. I don’t know what to do about this. I don’t want to let this disease ruin my life. I’ve overcome so much in my life from addiction and come out on the other side, but this has completely crushed my self esteem, spirit, and happiness. I’m sorry this is so long-winded, and if you’ve read this far I really appreciate it. So if anyone has any suggestions I would love to hear them.