Hi, I was diagnosed with genital HSV-1 two and a half years ago. After the initial shock and heart-break, when I was told it was HSV-1 and wouldn't occur that frequently (one gynecologist said it was unlikely that it would ever come back, one said unlikely after 1 year)... so I thought that I was good.
Suddenly, after starting a new (terrible) job and medication (Lexapro) I got an outbreak again in July after two and a half years. It has felt like all of the anxiety has come rushing back, and the trauma and shame. I thought it was over and done with. Now I am constantly worried, for myself and for my boyfriend of four months, I'm too afraid to try any anxiety meds because I've convinced myself that SSRIs cause herpes... I have no idea what to do. Any razor bump, cut, or itch from an ingrown hair sends me into a complete panic and I triple dose on all of my supplements that supposedly prevent herpes (would not recommend doing this). I've talked to a therapist but they haven't helped me that much on this issue. Mostly, I am CONSTANTLY terrified that I gave my boyfriend herpes, always wondering if he had a coldsore as a kid that would make him immune, always make sure he takes supplements I gave him. It's becomming a lot, for both of us I think.
Anyone else experience this, or have any advice?