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This is almost exactly what I have been battling for weeks now. It is heartbreaking. The feelings of doubt will be with you for a while. I was to the point of telling her to get out of my house and filing for divorce before the sun set. It hurts, its painful, its heartbreaking for the one person you love not to tell you about something that like you said, I would have looked at it on google for an hour and said "ready to fuck"? I have questioned and dug into every aspect of her past and for the most part she has been honest with everything else. She is loving, she is caring, she is way way more sexy and beautiful than I should be able to catch. It is going to eat away at you for some time. Just remember, going forward YOU resume all risk and know what you are getting into, so in all honesty it is like a reuniting of sorts. Thats how I finally had to see it for myself. I still have days that I resent her (and my tests aren't even back yet), i don't trust her, I catch myself questioning her about stuff I had never questioned about before in 2 years. At least she did tell you, my wife told me she just "held out on me" the one time she felt an OB coming on and doubled down on her meds. I was going to be with her for the rest of my life hopefully before this and if I can truly let it all go at some point and completely stop the resentment then I think we will be together forever, because in 2.5 years together that is the first argument, fight, or cross word we have ever had. And just FYI, it was eating her up inside every time you were together, every time she had an itch, every time you were intimate in anyway. I know that because my wife finally admitted that to me. She was selfish, untruthful, dishonest and any other word you can come up with for a liar. She admits it and I really do believe her when she says she is sorry. It doesn't excuse it in the least, and you have every right to question any part of what she says until she has paid her dues for not being honest with you. I even told my wife, if I can't let it go I am not going to hold you in this relationship and badger you and us both be unhappy forever.

I don't even know why I was posting this, other than to say it is nice to see others do disclose no matter what. If I had known from the beginning or after we had dated I would have had no issue whatsoever with it. It is the fact that she hid it, and I understand to an extent, but its always better to know going in. If I have it now I will deal with it, just like she has. But I learned a valuable lesson, if there is ever anyone else, there will be full disclosure.

SO here goes my story.... I was when me and my wife met we were both recently divorced. I cannot deny that I was no angel from the time my ex w and I divorced until I met my current wife, but I got tested after we started talking just in case one of my one night stands or partners had HSV or something else. WE have had an amazing marriage. We were always open about everything, OR SO I THOUGHT, I guess it was just me. Anyway, I never questioned anything she said, we have been through a lot since we got together and got married, both had custody disputes and we both won, we stuck together through it all and never had a cross word no matter what we found out about each other's past and things they had done. One month ago, I go looking in my wife's truck to get my debit card that I let her borrow and opened her purse and there is a bottle of Valtrex with 3 pills left with and prescription date of 25 days prior. I asked her what it was she said "fever blisters" and denied having GHSV. So about 2 weeks later I look again and there is a new bottle that is almost full. I looked at the bottle that time and it was from her OBGYN. So at this point I'm furious. I ask her again and she said yes she had a positive HSV test in 2014. That is all she would say, no matter how many times I asked her. She just kept lying about it. Finally I told her to get her medical records and sure enough in 2015 she had been diagnosed and prescribed Valtrex daily for suppression. My issue is she didn't tell me, It wouldn't have changed my mind at all about her, she held off sex for a couple weeks when we started dating and I could feel there was something she wanted to say but didn't, because she said she feared rejection. So I questioned her about her other BF's she had been with and she said she hadn't told any of them either. She just didn't have an excuse other than she was too embarrassed to tell me. After finally getting her to talk she said she had gotten it from her ex husband she though, so I called him, and sure enough he told her from day one that he had it. I just went and got my test a week ago and haven't gotten the results back yet, but I am prepared either way for whatever they may be, although I haven't had an outbreak or any symptoms after almost daily unprotected sex for 2 years. It has caused our relationship to go to absolute H3LL the last month, not because of the H but because she lied. There is so much good info on here to deal with these situations, and look forward to being around on here. She is even going to start getting on here, because she almost lost her marriage over being to embarrassed to tell me.