Jenn88

So I’m on a dating app and I was talking to this guy and we got into how many ppl he had met and he said 2. When I asked what happened he said one of them had disclosed she had herpes. He said they talked to weeks and she waited u til they met to tel him. He said he was bothered she hadn’t mentioned it sooner knowing that could be a deal breaker. He then proceeded to say he never had an STD and doesn’t want one. Ok yea.... no one does but things happen. So that just put a damper on me wanting to get to date. Like is this what I look forward to? I’m questioning if I should even be on a dating app?? I’m just feeling worthless. And even if I met someone how would I k ow when the right time is to disclose? First date? Second? Third? I just don’t know.

@nobody555 how did you disclose? What did you say? I’m so worried that I will never find love. I just feel so damage and scared to let anyone in bc they might reject me

I have taken a break from this site for a year just Bc I needed time to let everything soak in and clear my head. I have been getting tested every 3 months after my initial diagnosis my IGM and IGg came back positive September of 2017. I then went to an infectious disease doctor and all my results since have been negative . Until today when I got a call saying my short terms levels were positive. I have this amazing guy in my life and I’m so scared to disclose I don’t know what to do. Part of my feels like I should maybe end things ?

I wouldn’t say nightmares but vivid dream yes. I think it’s more the anxiety and stress than the meds. I’m still taking it daily and have been okay so far thank god

Awesome!!! Thanks I will order it today!!!! I know I should t but it’s hard to feel that way.... sometimes I’m scared to touch my kids and I just cry

@bubbles0990 just having it period. Have to tell ppl... knowing it will never go away and always be with me. Not knowing who gave it to me makes me feel slutty.... knowing that I could never donate blood if my kids need it

Not high risk.... but it still doesn’t change how I feel ya know? I have days where I definitely feel dirty and I hate it

I’m doing okay tsking it day by day/ hpv I have goes away they say so I don’t stress that.... the herpes gets me though I have good days and bad days. Some days I forget I even have it and some days I’m just so depressed. It’s a wave of emotions. How are you

I have been taking it for 3 months and I’m now starting to feel nauseous everyday but o won’t stop taking it bc I don’t want any outbreaks and I’m scared I’ll become higher risk for transmission if I stop

See I feel nauseous but I dunno if it’s the pill or the vitamins I’m taking but I don’t wanna stop and then get an OB... I hate this

Anyone here taking daily valtrex? I’m taking daily suppressants but I’m starting to feel nauseous everyday and I’m wondering if it’s the meds? I also don’t want to stop taking them bc I haven’t had an outbreak since I started and I’m scared if I stop I will have an outbreak and become more contagious than what I am now

I’m not going to lie it will come an dgonin wavesz I freaked out last week because my son took a sip of my drink when I wasn’t looking. I totslly get how u feel

Some of you have read posts before where I talk about the guy that I am I love with whom I have no disclosed to bc I am scared. I’m scared of how he will react, scared he will b mad that I’ve known and haven’t told him.... but my guilt is consuming me.... and I need to tell him... i am definitely going to play it off like I just found out but my issue is I don’t know how to tell him or bring it up. I recently had a colopscopy done by gyn so I’m thinking of saying that’s how we found it but I don’t k ow how to bring it up or what to say. I’m 95 percent sure he is the one that gave it to me and he doesn’t k ow he has it but there was a period where we separated for 8 months and I was with someone else but that was over a year ago and I just got diagnosed in September. 3 days after he and I had sex and the day before he told me he had blisters. I noticed mine the day after any suggestions or ideas on how to tell him

I was diagnosed hsv2 two months ago and HPV last week

I don’t even care anymore to b honest. Like I’m just so done. I’m over it . I have been so depressed for days now I don’t even care. I’m ready for it to b over

They said my pap came back abnormal with positive hpv but no one told me what strand

No idea. They didn’t tell me but they didn’t mention warts either

I honestly don’t know bc she didn’t even mention HPV to me yesterday we didn’t talk about it all she told me over the phone a week ago

I just found out I have HPV AS WELL

That is amazing!!!! Glad she is doing well

We all love worh the fear of passing it on to others. It’s a normal thought and feeling. I would go for blood work just to ease your mind. Bc not knowing will only drive you crazy

Thank you. I reached out and he said he wants to hang out again.... so I’ll wait to see if he contacts me to make plans

Thank you!!!!

My infectious disease doctor told me this bc when he did my blood my results came back negative meaning the virus is dormant and not detectable in my system... i told him how doctors say you don’t need to disclose and his response was when you care about someone you want them to k or EVeRYTHINg about you and he is right. @sarahsfocus how is your sister

I went on my first date last night since my diagnosis.... I really enjoyed my self and it was great. We went back to his place after.... things were moving in that direction we were making out there was some touching. Then I literally jumped up and said I had to go to the bathroom and had a mini breakdown. I felt so dirty all over going, I felt bad that I was even kissing him. My only friend that knows and sister tell me I need to get out of my head and stop letting this control my life. That I deserve to find someone and be happy but I don’t feel right now that I do. Who would ever want to take the risk? Before H I never would have dated someone that told me they had it.... but things change once your diagnose and become more educated on it.... problem is those that don’t have it aren’t really educated on it. Maybe im just not ready to date? Am I going to feel dirty every date I have? It’s like this black cloud hovering over me the entire night. After that I said I had to go bc I just got in my own head so not sure if I will hear from him