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Silentsuffer

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  1. I still feel like this almost 15 years in to having it. I got it at a pretty young age so I’ve had it most of my sexual life and it’s never easy. I try to focus on the other positives in my life and know that so many people have it or have something worse and can learn to love themselves. It’s a work in progress. Talking to someone helps. I saw a therapist and actually never talked about herpes but through talking about other areas in my life I was able to get myself out of a dark period in my life. Just know that you’re stronger than you think and this doesn’t have to define you. Find ways to get your feelings out whether it’s talking, working out, music art or dance. Whatever works for you really just hang in there it will get better
  2. Thanks. I know I’ve gotten through worse it’s just really frustrating as I moved to be a happier version of me and have a better quality of life- all of which is happening except now my physical health is a problem because of this. I’m trying not to let it impact my life but I live an active lifestyle and it’s impacting me so much more than I would like. I don’t want to go to urgent care- the pain isn’t unbearable and I can certainly wait to see someone plus my insurance hasn’t kicked in yet at my new job. I booked to go see someone at planned parenthood so it won’t be too expensive. Plus, I was diagnosed as a mortified teenager and don’t even know if I used my real name at the planned parenthood and would have no record of it at this point. I could def be more stressed than I think but I know I’ve been way more stressed out before and not had breakouts and never for this long. I’m really wandering if it’s my iud as I got a new one about 6 months ago and a lot of my body is pretty affected by my cycle...but since iuds for years I haven’t had a period in several years so it’s hard to tell. I just hope I get it resolved as I don’t want to live like this for months more or possible years which I can’t even imagine at this point...
  3. First of all I can’t believe it’s taken me this long to join a forum or really communicate openly about herpes seeing as I’ve had it for almost 15 years. The thing with my herpes is I don’t really ever have to think about it since I very rarely got outbreaks. After my first horrific outbreak when I got it I’ve maybe had 4-5 outbreaks in the past 15 years. I’ve gone through very stressful times, moved, switched birth controls, been sexually active or not at all and nothing seemed to cause any bad outbreaks besides one every couple of years. Now, for the past 3 months I’ve had either a series of outbreaks or one continuous one that never seems to heal. This has NEVER been this bad and I’m starting to loose my mind. I did just recently move internationally (back to the USA) and have been stressed out with moving, starting a new job and being the sole income for my household as my husbands not working. However, I’ve definitely been more stressed out than this before and not had outbreaks like this so I really don’t understand why it’s happening now. I don’t usually take anything for my outbreaks as they are so infrequent so the first one 3 months ago I brushed off as a random occurrence but now 3 months in I’m desperate for this to stop.i have used acyclovir cream and taking lysine and it’s done nothing really to help. I’m booked in to go see someone but couldn’t get in until next week. I’m hoping maybe a prescription for Valtrex or something will help. im so scared now that it’s going to continue for months even with treatment. So many factors have changed I also can’t pinpoint a trigger. I got a new iud about 5 months ago but had one previously and never had problems, I’ve moved and been very stressed for about the past 2 years constantly, I’ve moved to the desert now which is very hot (although I lived here previously with no problems)...the first outbreak occurred 3 months ago after vigorous sex in a pool so I can see what caused that but not the subsequent ones. I still carry a lot of emotional trauma and shame and I’m terrified if I have outbreaks for months on end it’s going to start to affect my mental health. I also haven’t told my husband about these outbreaks (he knows and I know I could) but I hate talking about it and we are going through a rough time for other reasons that I just don’t have it in me to fight and emotionally deal with it all at once. And no I don’t think our problems have stressed me to the point of causing these outbreaks as things have been rocky for a while now. Has this happened to anyone before? Having almost no outbreaks then all of a sudden constant? Advice, support, shared empathy- anything would help. I’m freaking out and it must only be making it worse...
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