lost&confused

I know but I don't want to expose myself in the process

@_a_rayofsunshine_ that's crazy I just found out my ex is in a whole new relationship I want to warn the girl so bad but I was told to just mind my own business because who was there to tell me.

@Vibes90 yes it is easier said than done since I've had the virus my migraines are more frequent and they seem to last long that's been my only issue

@Michgirl73 I've only told my closest friends also and they haven't judged me or treated me different like I thought they would. It seems like when I'm home alone is where it hits me the most or when I really wanna talk to somebody I like but I refrain from doing it.

Thank you for the words I really appreciate it

I feel the exact same way the first few couple of months the doctors wanted to put me on suicide watch because the depression got so bad. I hate with a passion that we even have to deal with this and the facts of having to tell someone devastates me to the core. I couldn't believe I actually tried to stay with him all because I was scared being alone.

I just want to know how do you move on from this? Sometimes I feel like it would be easier if me and my "giver" found out together unexpectedly I could deal with it better, but to know each other for years prior to being in a relationship for over a year bothers me. It also bothers me to know that he knew he had it, he cheated, and moved on as if he's done nothing wrong. For the last year I've been going thru the motions some days I can accept my situation other days I cant so Im depressed & crying I've tried going to a therapist and talking to my friends but they cant relate to my situation the question remains in my mind who would want to put themselves in harm's way to be with me. So I ask how do you move on from this?

I was with him because I felt like after this no one would want to be after this so I minus well do what I can to make it work. After I urged him to go get tested numerous times and he would always say "I'll schedule an appointment" is when I realized he already knew he had it and he was also cheating on me so there's a possibility I wasn't the only one infected.