I am single dating and hooking up with a couple different people over the last 2 yrs. One of these people has been over 2yrs (strictly hookups), the other more serious (dates, sleepovers). I only see the hookup person randomly, no time invested. The other one, we make plans and go out, but he is the one who gave me herpes (he didn't know he had it and never had an outbreak). It has been a couple months now that I have had it. I haven't heard from hookup person til this weekend and I pushed him off, said I was busy.
Here is my dilemma- I really want to see him, but I just can't bring myself to tell him about the big H at this time - or ever. I could still see him but limit by activities (I have genital HSV1), I could just ignore him/ghost him til he stops reaching out (but I have no will power), I could make up a story as to why I can't see him/ have limited interaction, or I could tell him about big H. I haven't told anyone yet and I am scared sh*t of rejection from him. Since we don't have any conversations, there really isn't a way to sit down and discuss.
Do I even owe him an explanation if I just disappear after over 2yrs of hooking up??? If so, how do I tell him I have gotten this now???
I appreciate some feedback and advice :).