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  1. Hello! Thank you for your response! I had pretty much just accepted it as part of my life and really don't even think about it much until this week when I just randomly got a blister. But it was only one and it healed quickly so let's hope it was a one time thing 🤞🏻 I hate having to switch medications all the time
  2. When I had my initial OB and diagnosis in February my mental health was in a state of complete disrepair. To the point where I was highly suicidal. Over the past few months I have gone back to therapy and seeing a psychiatrist. I have severe cPTSD and borderline personality disorder but I've been off all meds completely for over 3 years. Since my nightmares and suicidal ideation weren't going away (and even getting worse on some medications) I recently switched psychiatrists and started a handful of different medications. And now I am starting my first OB since being on acyclovir. Other than m
  3. I haven't taken another one. I don't have insurance and don't really see the point since my culture was positive. I did try to stop taking acyclovir and had another breakout within the week which tells me my body hasn't built up antibodies.
  4. I think in normal, healthy kidneys the risk is pretty low but like I said mine have been compromised from high risk pregnancies.
  5. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4129723/ Here's the first one. I literally just Googled "acyclovir kidney" and there were a few articles. I got herpes in late January of this year.
  6. I'm so sorry you're having a difficult time! Divorce is tough anyway (I've been through two myself). I was very deeply depressed when I got hsv 2 back in January. I still struggle with it some days.... well a lot of days.... but someone in this forum suggested I talk to a counselor and I'm so glad I took their advice! There's a lot of good information and advice here.
  7. The person who gave it to me kept getting a negative blood test and telling me he didn't give it to me. It had to be him. I started breaking out a few days after we had sex, had not been with anyone else in months, and tested negative for antibodies as well. There's a possibility my blood test was wrong I suppose. I just don't trust them at all. But I do not believe I had it before him because any time I try to stop or decrease my antivirals I break out.
  8. A quick Google search showed multiple case studies where acyclovir was linked to kidney failure. As I've had preeclampsia twice, I am inclined to believe it's been a culprit to me retaining water weight. But it's all moot because I stopped taking it for nearly a week (and immediately dropped 6 lbs) and yesterday a blister came up 😩. I haven't tried any other medications but I guess I will have to talk to my doctor.
  9. I disclosed to him before we had sex how the last person infected me and then ghosted me. He wasn't fazed by it but I don't think he understands the emotional impact it had on me. Either way he doesn't pressure me physically when he can tell I'm not into it. He's good people.
  10. Damn that sucks. The person who gave it to me ghosted me entirely. His blood test came back negative so he swore he didn't give it to me. I later reached out to him to let him know that mine also came back negative which means we both acquired it recently. I hadn't been with anyone else in months so I know it was him. He had nothing to say. People can be really shitty.
  11. I raised my standards as well, although not at first. I actually let two loser exes come back into the picture just because I didn't think anyone else would want me. After that I decided to spend some time just working on myself and didn't date at all for a while. My current boyfriend sought me out and pursued me and didn't run away when I told him. Granted, I've never actually been rejected, not even after I got herpes. The person that gave it to me ghosted me afterward, which was very painful and messed me up in the head pretty bad. But I truly believe if you are patient and wait f
  12. It seems like you already reached out to her and she gave you her answer. What exactly are you trying to accomplish by reaching out to her family and friends? Doesn't seem like you are going to get the outcome you desire. Best to talk to a therapist.
  13. I don't have much of a sex drive anymore either. I was diagnosed with HSV-2 in Februrary and I was scared to have sex for months. I think a lot of it had to do with the person who gave it to me ghosting me immediately after. I'd never been treated like that before so it definitely added insult to injury. I've since gotten into a new relationship with the greatest guy and I feel like there's no sexual chemistry. I know that's 100% on my part. I was sexually abused as a very small child so I've always been a little skittish about being intimate anyway but never to the point where I don't want se
  14. I was wondering if anyone has had a similar situation to mine. I've been on Acyclovir since my initial OB back in February and my whole body has been off ever since. I credited a lot of it to the fact that I sank into a really deep depression but I'm doing much better mentally now and my body still feels broken. For one thing I've gained a significant amount of weight. I am an avid gym rat and I don't eat that much so 20-25 in a short amount of time is a problem. There was about a 2 month period where I had no motivation to work out and constantly stuffed my face but now I'm putting fort
  15. I have yet to be rejected after disclosing except for the person who gave it to me (THAT was shitty) but I wouldn't have blamed them a bit for bouncing. If I could go back in time and not go home with my giver I would do it in a heartbeat.
  16. Well this post took an unexpected turn. I was in a somewhat similar situation (the person who gave me hsv 2 just stopped talking to me cause I have hsv 2) and the best thing I did was seek counseling. If it is available to you, please do it. I have dealt with a lot of trauma in my past (everything from child sexual abuse to physical abuse to legal problems) and I thought I was pretty darn tough until this. It's a lot for a person to go through.
  17. Your index value is just a measure of the antibodies in your blood. Blood tests do not detect HSV, only your immune system's reaction to it. Generally the higher your index value, the longer you've had it. Although everyone's body builds antibodies at different rates.
  18. Well... as a female... my initial OB caused a paper cut sore close to where it comes out so yes that caused some irritation. But once that sore healed no it didn't hurt to pee.
  19. I haven't experienced this with picking up my acyclovir but I once caught chlamydia from a now ex boyfriend and the pharmacist was really rude about giving me a double dose of my medication (which the doctor at PP had prescribed for me because I was in what was supposed to be a monogamous relationship) for him. She told me they "don't do that" even though I looked into it and it's a thing. Obviously if one person has an STD there's a second person infected. Also once when I was in high school my mom had me put on birth control to regulate my periods and the pharmacy tech had the nerve to
  20. He sounds like a jerk honestly. I went through a similar situation where the person who gave it to me just stopped talking to me because I had an outbreak... 3 days after we had sex. It really hurt my feelings, but honestly.... the problem was him not me. Are you positive for HSV 1 or 2? If it's 1 most people have it orally and you can get it from lots of sources so there really is no reason to feel like a whore.
  21. Yes. As your body builds antibodies the numbers go up. I'm not sure how high they go but my HSV-1 results just said >5. Anything over 1.1 is considered positive.
  22. At first I only told my ex boyfriend because a) I wasn't 100% sure who gave it to me and b) he kept trying to get back with me. Turned out it was a recent exposure and I hadn't been with anyone but my giver in months so I didn't tell anyone else for a while. I slowly started telling close friends just because the stress of keeping it in was eating me alive. I started having counseling sessions with my pastor of all people and that made it easier to talk about. I haven't told my family because really... I'm not at risk for passing genital herpes to them so that's just a personal call. I do
  23. No I get what you're saying, just there's not much point in me getting a WB done for myself because I already know I have it. Theres very little margin for false positives on a swab test, although it CAN happen. It may benefit my giver or anyone with conflicting diagnoses to have one. Personally I have had no issues on acyclovir and have come to terms with having it, although the circumstances surrounding how I got really hurt my feelings and put me in a deep depression at first.
  24. A "high" negative is a negative. I already know I have hsv 2 because i had an outbreak and had it swabbed. The point is that blood tests cannot detect the virus, they only measure your body's immune system to it. That's why my giver thinks he isn't the one that gave it to me, because he didnt have any antibodies at the time. There is no need for me to have WB because I had an outbreak. Anti-virals suppress the virus, not antibodies.
  25. The test I took listed values of .9 to 1.1 as equivocal. Anything under is negative and anything over is positive.
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