sphire

Happened to me as well. I hope you find peace.

Hello everyone. I was diagnosed with GHSV1 last December. Got it in childhood. Unpleasant topic. I haven't dated or even kissed anyone before (I'm 18) and I want to have kids and a husband and a happy dating and sex life, but I feel like those things were taken from me before I could even dream of having them. I'm just so, so scared of rejection and loneliness and infecting future partners. I used to feel great about myself sexually, but now I cry often about how much anxiety I have relating to this and I feel like no one can love me and they'll just get hurt if they do choose to anyway. What's the point of trying to love someone if I'm going to hurt my lover and my future children. I feel filthy and diseased. I don't know what to do. I understand that a lot of this is emotional but it's a rut I don't know how to get out of. Sorry for the blob of negativity, I just thought that talking about it here would help. I've never knowingly spoken to someone who had herpes before, and I was kinda hoping you all could give me some advice on how to move on with my life and somehow end up happy.