This morning I was diagnosed with HSV 1.
For the past week, I have had severe cold sores throughout my mouth and swelling in the lips. I went to the doctor this last Tuesday where she tested me for both HSV1 and 2.
Funnily enough whatever it is I had in my mouth (its almost gone) was not due to a herpes outbreak, but nonetheless I still did test positive for HSV1.
I've never had any symptoms before and have been previously tested with Negative results.
I am beyond devastated. Everything feels like it is crumbling before me.
I am 27 years old and am not sure how to go on after learning this information.
I already suffer from severe depression and anxiety, I can only imagine how I will treat myself after this.
How am I to forgive myself for this? Or be able to trust anyone else to love me when I can't even love myself?
My life has been nothing but one terrible occurrence after another and I am struggling to fight for my life. For some kind of positivity.
For some kind of reassurance that I warrant a life worth living.