Hello. Your story is very similar to mine. I'm also a black woman and a nurse. I contracted HSV2 from my ex-boyfriend 12 years ago, who did disclose, but after we had already had sex. Only 3 people know about my diagnosis, my husband, my ex-boyfriend, and my OB-GYN. I don't talk about having herpes with anyone. I went through a very rough time after my initial diagnosis. I hated myself, I hated my ex-boyfriend, i felt like i would be alone forever, who would want someone like me who has an STI that you can't get rid of. When I told my now husband that I have Herpes, he was angry with my ex-boyfriend (he thought Herpes was the same as HIV), although both are incurable they're definitely not the same. I have experienced the situations you are speaking of with all races. Everyone associates having Herpes with being "nasty" or "sleeping around", when that isn't the case for majority of people living with herpes. There's just such a huge misconception regarding herpes and a lack of education.
I know how you feel and what you're going through (I had to take anti-depressants for years after being diagnosed). The right person will come along.