I am always amazed (I shouldn't be), at the power of words. I didn't realize how much my heart needed to hear those words @herry. Thank you. I am grateful for this place, in awe that you found it only a month after you were diagnosed (I am glad I found it, even if it took awhile). I've lived with this and all it's shame for way too long (23 years, a lost child, a marriage who's main reason of exisitance was b/c of this thing, then lived through the divorce 15 years later). It's been 8 years I've been on my own and tonight reading those words...they hit something deep inside again...that place of wanting such loving support as found in this forum. Thanks.