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Good morning, So I’ve been dealing with this for quite some months now and I stumbled across this website and read a few stories. My story is somewhat similar, but my worries now are different. So, earlier this year I had contracted hsv2 from my now boyfriend and sex partner. I had noticed the unusual outbreak and immediately went to the doctor not only because it looked disturbing but it was also so painful. When my doctor took a glance at it she stated it was hsv2 but she needed to run some test just to make sure. My heart had dropped because I haven’t been with very many sex partners and for me to be in my late 20’s and have been pretty protective over myself I thought why me. I didn’t know if I should tell someone and if I did tell someone who would I tell. Of course I told my boyfriend and he said that I didn’t get it from him. I was devastated because I know for a fact I was tested before we hooked up and I hadn’t been with anyone since him. We decided to stay together (& I have doubts about that) and whenever the topic comes up it’s always an instant argument about who gave it to who. Sometimes I feel like I only stay with him just because I’m scared I’ll give it to someone else and dealing with the anxiety of telling someone that I have this. So, fast fwd to today at the time I was diagnosed I was scared. Outside of telling my boyfriend I ended up telling my older sister. It has been brought to my attention that my older sister had been running her mouth and telling other family members and I am furious. I am currently out of town so I don’t have to face anyone just yet, but I’m to the point to where I never want to go back. What should I do?