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I just had the herpes talk for the very first time. Of course I already knew that he wasn't going to freak out and that he wasn't going anywhere but now I'm really embarrassed. I don't know what to do or say. He keeps sending me texts messages like nothing is wrong. I know there's nothing wrong but how can I get over the embarrassment?

I just recently started hanging out again with this guy I've known for awhile. He's had feelings for me for several years . We've only seen each other three times but I really want to tell him. When he took me out over the weekend things got pretty intense back at his house. Of course I didn't sleep with him but I would have loved to more than anything. I regret even doing that much actually. Anyway, is it too soon to tell him? I know we've just started hanging out again but I feel like we're right in that in between stage where he likes me enough but not hasn't completely fell for me yet. (Borderline "falling for me"). Of course that negative, afraid voice in my mind is saying he'll leave but when he was holding me in his arms the other night a part of me just knew that after disclosing he won't be going anywhere. Anyway, is it too soon? Not sure what to do. Did I make a huge mistake by letting it go that far this weekend? We kept our clothes on but now I'm paranoid that he'll be mad at me.

I got herpes over a year ago after losing my virginity. I was young (still am) and I took it surprisingly well. It wasn't a big deal at all. Anyway at the time I was talking to and spending time with a friend who'd had the biggest crush on me. He knew I was sick but didn't know why. I wouldn't tell him and even went as far as to say he wouldn't want to be friends if he knew. We stopped talking for awhile. Fast forward to now. We started talking again a month ago and I've just become a single mom. That plus the herpes has really taken a toll on my self esteem. Who's really going to love me now? I would love for the relationship to move forward eventually. I really think I should tell him within the next month. He still remembers me being sick and not telling him. I've never had to tell someone I truly care about that I have herpes so this will be a first in a way. He's obviously accepting of the fact that I have a child (which makes me uncomfortable sometimes) which I think is a bigger deal than having herpes. He's obviously a nice guy who cares about me (something I've never had before). So why do I feel this will be a dealbreaker? I'm scared I'll end up not telling him and suggesting we just be friends.