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Everything posted by Btru2urself

  1. @mr_hopp A big belated thank you for your kind post, the encouragement, and the helpful links. I am sure that the website keeps you plenty busy and it means so much that you took the time to give me such a thoughtful reply. Still not feeling quite like myself and the last thing on my mind is a romantic partner but I am hoping time will help with that. I am still in disbelief that I got it the first time I had sex with first sexual partner I have had in 10 years and given how careful I always am. He had no fever blisters and said he hadn't had one in over a year. Didn't even know I could get it orally. He acted concerned at first but he's pretty much out of the picture now. Still feeling dirty and now I can add used to the list. So hurtful. Anyway, I digress. Again, thank you for your reply and thank you for this forum. #grateful. I hope that you have a good Fourth!
  2. @Ellie88 Thank you again for such wise words. As for bumps in the road, I've never been much good at change but it's looking like it's here to stay and I will adjust because I have to. A relationship and sex are about the last things on my mind these days but hoping that will change with time. I'm so glad that you are in a fulfilling relationship and hope it and your good health continues! Big hug back to you! 💜
  3. @Ellie88, Thank you so much for taking the time to reply, and your kind words. I so appreciate the benefit of your experience and it gives me some hope that there is light at the end of this tunnel. I will certainly pay it forward to someone else who needs some support once I get a little bit more comfortable with it myself. 💜
  4. I am a 50+ year old woman who has always been cautious sexually. I didn't have sex for the first time until I married. Two weeks ago, I engaged in what I consider to be casual sex with someone with whom I had been out a few times. A few days later, I was diagnosed with HSV1 on my genitals from oral sex. I feel so irresponsible, ashamed, and dirty. I know it's not fatal, but I am so depressed. I talked with the man and he was apologetic and nice but doesn't want a serious relationship. I knew that but everything feels so weird right now. I don't know how to negotiate a relationship with him now and dread the prospect of having to share this diagnosis with anyone in the future. I am an open book about everything in my life but this is something I can't share and that makes me sad, too. My sister passed away a few months ago ... she is the one I would have gone to for support. I was just starting to feel a little bit of joy and this has been a huge setback. I worry about future outbreaks and what I can expect in terms of the number of outbreaks and severity. If you are reading this and have anything that you can share that would be helpful, I would so appreciate it. Thank you, thank you. I am crying as I write this.
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