I don't know who I got it from at first I felt dirty, since it is associated with a std and regretful of my party years but now I see it just as a skin condition, people have cold sores on their mouth, mine's just in a different area. There is too much negative connotations around this condition, but don't let it define who you are. In a way you now have a way of finding out who is mature and who isn't in your life. It can't be easy that you do have the condition at your age since people are more judgmental, but finding nice intelligent people to spend time with will help you all the more.