lovelife2020

I was diagnosed with hsv2 around 3 years ago. At the time I was with my ex and she didn't know she has it. Still denied she had it after I started having symptoms. She never had symptoms she never went to get tested. I bared with her for 3 years and finally broke up. I was single for about a year and finally decided to start dating. unfortunately I'm the type that has symptoms and get them often. Lucky me. So I met this lovely girl. We connected so well. She didn't want to have sex right away so it was easy to drag it along. We fell in love and talked everyday. I mean this girl was really in to me. Her eyes would glow every time. After 3 months things would get beyond kissing and she started wanting sex. About 4 month I decided to tell her and her reaction was heart breaking for me. It was like she broke into a million pieces. Her attitude completely change instantly. She hardly wanted to kiss me. She called me the next day crying balls telling me I'm special and how i deserve the best and all. She hung up and that was it. Finished not a text or anything. I was shocked by her reaction. This experience has ruined me in many ways. How many of these heartbreaks and aches I have to go through. At times i feel like it's a blessing because. I mean this thing is putting the vow "in sickness and in health" to the test. Again the negative voice in my head tells me that I really have this condition and it's killing me inside and the symptoms are reminder every-time. Not sure if anyone has had the same experience as me, but I can use some advice.