Amelia

Soooooooo, idk what to think... I believe he knew and didn't tell. But I accept that the bottom line is that I chose to have unprotected sex no matter how safe I felt. I fell ill 2 1/2 weeks after unprotected sex with him. Went to the doctor and was confirmed. He was tested, said he was negative, but when I asked him to send results to my doc, he said he thought they were wrong and was going to have them retest with same vile of blood. Is that even possible? Then I insisted he use protection incase it was right. He refused. We were together only 2 months at this point. He did some unforgivable things and the next day tells me he is positive. I cannot be with him and now I feel like I have failed myself in ever getting past it all. I am so scared no one will ever want me. $#!+

What if you are well known in the community and are scared/know your secret will spread like wildfire if you tell... Lots of local guys want to date me, but now I feel like I have to blow them off to hide my diagnosis. Just sick about it