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  1. Hello there dear, I am so sorry you are going through this. I just found out this weekend I have Herpes virus 2. I have been exposed to the herpes complex 1 when I was really younger. I am as well very devastated. I have also been experienced anxiety and panic attacks due a toxic relationship and separation as well, so finding this out is a cherry on top of this year. I don't know how 2020 could have hit me any worse. I didn't get tested for it, I looked up the symptoms. Had everything that it called for. I had a scare 5 year ago, where I had bumps appear in the same spot as this weekend. I finally got into the doctors but nothing could get swapped since it had dried out. I honestly don't know how it happened, maybe I carelessly had touched my face when I had a cold sore and had touched my inner thigh where it only has appeared, because I hadn't had any new partners in a while, and none of them said they had it. I guess I can't rule out someone could have given it to me, and symptoms appeared years later. Either way, I balled to my boyfriend and told him if he didn't want to be with me I understood. He was very much more rational about it then me. I was his end game, and now here are having problems where were not sure if we are each other's end plan. I did tell him it appeared, and his comfort has seized from the support he once gave. At that first time, I had showed him and he thought I was over exaggerating and looking more like ingrown hairs, although the GYNO said he couldn't say for sure, but it looked like herpes. I was more hit by it it then by the overall shock of everything. I was so ashamed, and never felt more disgusted as a person. Somehow now that its been 3-4 years later of another occurrence, my mentality feels a bit more equipped to accept it. I am now finally understanding, this has nothing to do with my worth as a person. Lets face it, most social stigmas are ridiculous and are EFFED up. If you ask me. I am 30, and if there's any great positive way to look at this, is the meaning of life is so much deeper than what challenged we face now, and ahead of us. Doesn't mean it's not any other matters it's horrible to deal with. The underlying is if you have a supportive loving boyfriend, supportive good friends (you don't have to tell of course) What more do we need in life, then to surround ourselves with people we trust and love. EFF the rest. If you need to talk more about it, let me know, I can give you my contact information, I am going through as well. And you are not alone, and it doesn't mean in you are in way less a beautiful human being. This isn't as horrible as the world as made it out to be. T
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