sohlohniks

I'm not really here for pity, it just really sucks. It was an accident, I left my water bottle opened and her son drank after me. After that I didn't really know what to do and kinda talked about a situation I had and how I don't feel normal anymore and I gave her some space because I know it's not something to brush off. I didn't mean to make it about me, I really didn't. There was nothing to say really. I didn't want sympathy, I just wanted understanding... but that wasn't the time. She texted me how she felt and pointed out how I made it about me and I apologized to which I noticed even before all of that she removed me from her finsta and I just know that was it. That was the last we talked and I even finally just took off all social media from my phone since that's what I've been wanting to do for a while. It's the fact that I haven't been taking care of myself, isolating myself, and becoming codependent that things came to what it is. If I can ask for any type of advice, it would be how can I overcome this cycle of shame and isolation? I know that covid also plays a factor, but I've really become closed off to so many people that I'm losing them. I understand that I'm making it 10x bigger in my head, but between this and finding out who I am as a person, it is a lot.