ashaelizbeth

abc I just want to hug you... And somehow stop you from the mental beating you're giving yourself!!

I can totally see myself in your post!! I wish I had some clever comment but just that you're so not alone feeling like that!

This is absolutely beautiful!!!

I have my fragile days too.. More often than I care to.. But I'm trying to consciously change them into good days.... Perception is everything.. My perception of the situation will color my whole day... I refuse to be at the mercy of my nasty inner voice anymore!!!( so says I on a good day) :D :D :D

WCS thank you for the warm fuzzy welcome!! :) You are def one of the most inspiring people here! The TED talks you've posted are AMAZING! I'm excited for the course and my future!!

wow thanks abc I don't feel inspiring most days.. Its just getting up and doing what I have to do :) I have read so much my eyes feel like they are crossing since I've decided to face this "elephant" of mine (that is my code word in public when discussing with my friends in the know). I think (at least for me) I was fed up with being at war with myself. I was tired of feeling like crap, tainted, dirty. I wanted to feel like me again whole, happy, and healthy. So I decided to take the elephant by the trunk and educate myself and take it head on. I hope what I just rambled about helps you in some small way... we all have our own journey with ourselves and I've pulled A LOT of inspiration off this board and the cancer board I belong too (yep I've had that too.. I know my story just keeps getting better ;) lol). The human spirit is amazing and can overcome so much with just some love and inspiration from other humans who can open up and just care. <3

Hiya! I'm new here but I've been lurking on and off for quite a bit. I've decided to pull myself out of the shame I've been living in for the past 3 years. I was given H 1 & 2 by my ex-husband. He cheated and I ended up with the reminders. I have to amazing girls that I am now raising alone while he serves a jail sentence for heroin (I know like the story wasn't awesome enough ;) ) I was in a short lived relationship until I disclosed.. then he couldn't deal. Its ok though he could barely handle discussing our feelings I had a feeling this relationship would be a bit too real for him... So now I'm taking the time to heal since I've been avoiding this for FAR too long. I did sign up for the awesome to be home study course starting next month.. New year New Attitude for not the new me but a better, happier, & healthier me. Thanks for reading and I look forward to being a member of this awesome community now that I'm leaving the shadows of the forum and my shame behind!!