HopefulVictoria

Hello Everyone! Well it's been 5 months now since my last OB so I guess I can't be entirely pissed off. Needless to say I extremely uncomfortable. For those of you that don't know me. Last year i was diagnosed with Oral HSV 2 after giving a blowjob, I have outbreaks in the very back of my throat. 2 days ago I started to feel run down and the sore creeping on once again, I was praying and hoping it was symptoms of this dreadful flu that has been going around but NOPE! Wishful thinking! The lesions soon appeared shortly after and I have to say this one is a bad one. I'm assuming it's because of all the alcohol I consumed over the holiday and odd pieces of chocolate. Also I recently attempted to start exercising again regularly which I think knocked my immune system down. So here I am laying in my bed watching movies feeling as if I have strep throat yet again, thinking of 1000000 senerios that could be WAY worse. Bottom line H... Pisses me off! It pisses me off that there is no cure... It pisses me off that it can just show up whenever it feels like it... It pisses me off that hsv 2 can live in your oral region and that hsv 1 can live in your genetials. For those of you that have genetial H.... I truly feel for you! If any of you ever experience the pain I feel in my throat in your genitals, I can only imagine the discomfort. Anyways since im such a "rare bread" and all the Internet tells me about Oral HSV 2 is that I might have an OB once every 10 years (BULLSHIT) I thought Id post again, just incase by an off chance someone else is experiencing symptoms of Oral HSV 2 and has an questions for me.

Good Morning Whitedaisies! My initial OB in November was by far the worst! I remember jumping out of bed at 4am with a sore throat just knowing that something wasn't right! When I looked in the back of my throat I saw 1 blister on the very back of my throat and immediately panicked. Sure enough after a culture swab and my symptoms getting WAY worse I was diagnosed with Oral HSV 2. Every time I have had an OB it has come up in a different area of my throat but always at the very back of my throat. I don't have my tonsils so I think this may play a part in the location of my OB's. It basically feels like having strep throat (very uncomfortable) My 3rd & 4th OB have been way worse than my 2nd so I am assuming this is due to a vaccination of Hepatitis A/B that I had to have for school before I can enter the work force in the medical field. I guess I will know more if it decides to make an appearance again for the 5th time. Fingers crossed not anytime soon but with this bloody virus you just never know! As far as a description as to what the lesions look like... They basically just look like odd shaped blisters, when they start healing they turn yellow (disgusting I know). This diagnoses has been EXTREMELY hard for me to accept, it has even resulted in me having to take an antidepressant because I hit rock bottom after finding out I have Oral HSV 2 - But at the end of the day there are so many other things to be thankful for I know it's sounds like a bit of a cliche but after studying in the Health Care Industry I can assure you we could all be WAY worse off! I'm sorry you too are having a hard time - Feel free to message me anytime! HV

Hi Willow! I will join you on today's vent if you don't mind! I'm HV I was diagnosed with Oral HSV 2 in November 2013 from performing oral sex on a complete asshole that my mother had repeatedly told me to stay away from. (I guess mothers really do know best) I don't have vaginal H, However I can assure you having it in the back of your throat isn't all that much fun either. I too am Canadian and I am currently on my 4th OB since being diagnosed. I went to my pharmacy yesterday and paid $96 for 20 Valtrex! I thought $40 was bad enough but now it has more than doubled! I am fortunate in the sense that I currently don't take it everyday but still how on earth are people who are on suppressive therapy supposed to afford that? Anyways take a deep breath & try and relax, We are all in this together! HV

So turns out I didn't have strep throat so it was yet #3 OB since being diagnosed. Today is Saturday July 12th and yesterday I was hit again with another OB #4. I have recently been going through a series of vaccinations for Hepatitis A/B as I will be entering the work force in the Medical field shortly and having this vaccination is a requirement. I am almost positive that my 3rd & now 4th OB are both related to the vaccination as they both showed up shortly after I was injected. I started to feel absolutely terrible on Thursday, tired, headache, sore throat, chills. So automatically I thought Flu - WRONG... Wishful thinking once again! Friday morning I woke up, checked my throat and sure enough the lesions were there to greet me! Went to the pharmacy to get the old Valtrex prescription only to find out that where I live is completely out of the generic brand for the next year, so lucky me I got to pay $96 for 20 pills. Anyways I just thought I'd share with everyone once again as supposedly what I have is uncommon and doesn't present it's self very often. Hardy Hargh Hargh - To be fair I really am hoping that the 3rd and 4th OB are indeed related to the vaccinations as the 2nd OB I had was minor and gone with in a couple of days. I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend! Thank you again for all the support from everyone! Even my Doctor is fed up and says we are long over due for a cure! HV

Good Morning Everyone! For those of you that don't know of me, I was diagnosed with with Oral HSV 2 (in the back of my throat) in November 2013. I was fairly active on this website until I decided that even looking at the word "H" was enough to turn my stomach. I didn't handle my diagnoses well at all and still to this very day I have an extremely hard time accepting it. I developed a case of chronic floating anxiety and depression. I am now on 20mg of Ciplarex daily which thank god for medication because without it I don't know where I would have ended up. I was very apprehensive about starting the medication as my ego didn't want me to be on an Antidepressant, I spent about $1000 on Acupuncture, Herbal Medicines, Therapists, Psychologists & Naturopaths before coming to terms with that fact that all I was doing was suffering & wasting money. I also attempted over exercising in hopes that I would exhaust myself enough to at least shut my brain off and get a few hours of sleep. Until the Ciplarex kicked in because on average it does take about 4-6 weeks the doctor had prescribed me Xanax. I personally HATE Xanax, I would feel better for about an hour and then come down from it and feel 10 times worse! They ended up switching me to Valium as it is a longer lasting Benzodiazepine, It made me exhausted but was well worth it being able to sleep rather than getting no sleep at all. I was only on the Valium a short period of time until the Ciplarex fully kicked in. I know this maybe a lot for some of you to read and it is not easy for me to disclose what I went through after being diagnosed but if I can help someone else with my story know at the very least they are not alone well then I feel it is more than worth sharing. As far as information went all Google had to offer me was that what I had been diagnosed with is rare and most likely won't present itself very often... Sound promising right? WRONG! I had my second OB March 21st 2014 which in all due respect couldn't compare to the devastating first one. I took what the doctor refers too as a "Super Dose" of Valtrex. "4am & 4pm" Stayed in bed and cried all day, seemed to due the trick within a couple of days I was symptom free again. Continued on about my life up until this past Friday evening, before going to bed I noticed I was starting to develop a sore throat. I immediately went into panic mode and instantly downed 4 Valtrex, went to bed woke up and took 4 more. This time... Valtrex doesn't seem to be working, this OB is worse than the second one & came back in a different area of my throat. I went to the clinic yesterday to get swabbed in hopes that by some miraculous chance I have strep throat and that is why my body is not reacting to the Valtrex. Let me tell you I am PISSED RIGHT OFF! And for those of you that have Genital H, I truly feel for you! Anyways I just wanted to give everyone an update as I know I am a bit of a rare breed having only Oral HSV 2. I hope everyone is doing well!

So... I know this is probably going to sound like an absolute long shot but at this time I feel as if it's worth asking.... What are the odds of a swab test coming back positive for HSV 2 when in actual fact it's Negative? Has this ever happened in the history of H? For those of you that don't know I was diagnosed with Oral HSV 2 from a swab but for some reason I have been thinking over the past couple of days I was misdiagnosed! I mean is there any other diseases that would have caused blisters in my throat? Clearly I am having a really hard time accepting my condition and I'm wondering if it is at all worth my while to get a blood test done as well? Maybe this is just all wishful and hopeful thinking but feeling as if I am currently the only one in the planet with Oral HSV 2 in throat is really starting to take it's tole on me. I feel as if I have 100000 questions and no one to get answers from! Also the photos on Google of Oral HSV 2 (Throat) look nothing like what I had experienced. Anyways call me crazy lol but any feedback would be much appreciated! Thanks Again HV

Thanks @WCSDancer2010 I went to the clinic this morning.... Doctor walks in and says so your here about a throat problem? I said yes about 5 weeks ago I was diagnosed with Oral HSV 2 then he made a face that made me want to cry. I told him that I am experiencing another sore throat and don't know if it's related to the Oral HSV 2 or not. Sure enough he just had a look and said my throat looked red. Then he said since I have already been diagnosed with Oral HSV 2 for me to take a super dose of Valtrex 4 pills am and 4 pills pm. Have you heard of this before? I'm still convinced that I only actually have a sore throat currently but this is all so new to me and I much prefer playing on the safer side of the fence. I don't have any lesions but the doctor said the super dose will stop them from appearing if that is what in actual fact is taking place. I just don't want to be popping Valtrex at any sign of a sore throat but maybe that's a symptom for me? I have been drinking lots of red wine, eating chocolate and been an anxious mess over the holiday. I've stopped the wine and chocolate now but I am still have anxiety issues! Does anyone have an suggestions for anxiety? I have a consultation with a light therapist next week I have heard it has done wonders for people.... Anyone tried it? Thanks! HV

I woke up this morning with a sore throat & I immediately assumed that I was having my second Oral HSV 2 OB. I have been checking my throat all day with a flashlight and no lesions have appeared my throat just looks red. My glands aren't swollen & I don't have a fever. I have been taking Advil etc for pain. My question is.... Is it possible that I am just experiencing a sore throat? I don't want to take Valtrex just for the sake of taking it & I don't remember my first OB which was only like 5 weeks ago even being this painful & sore. This Oral HSV 2 is so confusing as there isn't much info on it & supposedly is so rare. :( Any suggestions anyone? Thanks HV

Good Evening.... WELL... It's Friday evening.... I have had a couple of glasses of red wine and here I am about to post because I have been thinking about my situation all day and feel the need to share. First and foremost I would like to say a VERY special THANK YOU to @simplyme24 - You are an absolute gem of a human being and if I have anything to say about this situation it's that I am thankful for YOU and our new found friendship. *Smile* For those of you that don't know me on the forum just yet... I am HV & I "only" have Oral HSV 2. Now most of you would think that I would be happy about my situation but truth be told I just can't set it a side. It plays on my brain constantly & my anxiety is through the roof! That really is the WORST part about this entire situation... My throat has completely cleared up, I have a VERY low chance of seeing an OB ever again, especially since I have been under complete stress and anxiety since being diagnosed and miraculously haven't had a recurrent OB. I just can't stop feeling sorry for myself. It's like REALLY... All of this for giving a blowjob? I fell into the 1-2% of people that end up with Oral HSV 2. Not to mention I was naive enough to think that giving a blowjob is "harmless" I mean WTF I'm 27... Was I not taught ANYTHING in sexual education?!?! or did I really just think that I am invincible? I haven't seen anyone else post on here as of yet that has Oral HSV 2 in throat but I am optimistic that someone else will eventually show up (not that I wish this on anyone) just hoping that someone else who does have it will come forward.... Or maybe they won't? Maybe Oral HSV 2 is really not that big of a deal and that people that are diagnosed with it don't really feel that they need all that much support? I have read others stories on here and believe me when I say that I feel for each and every single one of you. I admire everyone's courage for even coming here and wanting to be educated and support each other through this journey. It's for life! This is for life! and I pray every night before I close my eyes that our generation will see a cure for this disease and if not I pray that each and everyone of us will at least find peace within ourselves and be able to move forward through this journey we call life. Have a wonderful weekend everyone! Cheers! HV

I had my first Oral HSV 2 outbreak about 4 weeks ago now. My doctor treated me with 5 days of Valtrex. My throat seems to be completely cleared up now as I have a flashlight down there regularly, expect in the areas I had the outbreak now look like flesh colored marks, Does this mean that my throat is still healing and will eventually clear up all together? I remember reading online somewhere that it can take anywhere from 2-7 weeks to heal as the throat is a constant moist area. I am hopeful and optimistic that I won't be seeing another outbreak but I just want to make sure that I am completely healed if and anytime I do. My nerves and anxiety have been getting the best of me lately so maybe that could be contributing towards my slow healing process? I dunno! I do appreciate any of your feedback because I know there are not many people familiar with Oral HSV 2 and there really isn't all that much information about it online either. All I have basically read is that it is VERY uncommon and if you have a strong immune system (like myself) shouldn't be much of an issue in my life. (Fingers crossed).

@jb1691 Relax & Breathe... I know exactly how you are feeling right now and your mind will play tricks on you if you start over thinking the situation. Look at it this way... There is absolutely nothing you can do over the next two days to change the outcome, so just try to relax and think "what will be will be" Everything happens for a reason & if you happen to test positive than we will all be here to support you. Did you have blood work done? Or are you experiencing an outbreak?

@WCSDancer2010 @Adrial Again thank you for your responses! I completely understand what you are saying and I bet lots of people on here read about me having Oral HSV 2 and think that I maybe got an "easy end of the stick." Especially since you, Adrial have told me that recurrences are rare and I have also read a lot of information online stating the same. I really am going to start making a conscious effort today to be more positive and I'm going to start by getting back into my regular exercise routine. You two have helped me immensely and I hope that by me being here if anyone else does turn up with Oral HSV 2 I will be able to help them just the same. :)

@WCSDancer2010 Yes your are right! It is going to take me sometime and not to mention I am an anxious stressful person by nature which I know it's good for any situation in life. Coming on here definitely contributes towards thinking about it but it is also very helpful. It makes a world of difference being able to share with people that can relate to your situation. Although I don't wish H upon anyone, I do wish someone else with Oral HSV 2 would come forward so that way we could converse a bit.

@WCSDancer2010 Thank you for the info! The problem I am facing today is the anxiety and constant thinking about it

@WCSDancer2010 I have a prescription for it incase I need it again. I completed 5 days of it, twice a day 2 days after my outbreak. It doesn't look like I'm having another outbreak from looking at my throat with a flashlight but then again I've never experienced this before so I don't know. I've read that since the throat is a constant moist area it can take some time for it to completely clear, 2-7 weeks to be exact? *Sigh*