Ksanz96

I was diasgnosed with GHSV1 in november My 1st outbreak I had cluster of sores with clear liquid that went away about a week later with acyclovir 2 weeks later ( December) a under skin bump popped up on my groin area The bump got red and painful but i could only feel it if i touched it since its under the skin. I've asked on other forums if this could be herpes showing up differently and got mixed answers. Over the past month 3 under skin bumps have formed ( i kept wanting to believe these are some sort of boils) BUT the fact that ive got one right after the other makes me think differently. Ive ive never got so many back to back like this. ive had boils/ cysts atleast once a year but 3 in one month??? I've read that some herpes show up differently so which is why I keep doubting this could just be boils One of them has almost gone way (not red anymore or painful ) because I squeezed white dry puss out When I touch it my skin feels flat now. Today I poked a whole on with a needle on the 2nd bump and ALOT of yellow puss came out along with blood. The bump is still there to touch and still red and it hurts. I can feel a 3rd one forming on the other side of my vulva. I'm so drained what is this! i currently dont have insurance so i cant go to the Doctor right now. My question is can herpes produce YELLOW puss like this???? Or are these boils / cysts/ abscess??? If they are boils i don't understand how I've got 3 back to back. That's never happend to me before. I wonder if herpes has triggered something down there. ( I haven't shaved in months so it's not that either)

I've read mixed information about it. Some people say you can and it has happend just by touching and others say its cery unlikely but still possible. Everything is just so emotionally draining. I'm in therapy but it doesn't seem to get better But thank you so much for the kind reminders and caring words. I really appreciate it all!

Who on here has infected other parts of their body???? Like their hands or face I have GHSV1 so I obviously touch myself when I shower and sometimes I masterbate. And lately I have these under skin bumps that I can't tell if they're an outbreak or just boils /cysts so i clearly touch and see if they're getting any better its like unavoidable to not touch my private parts! Am i suppose to wear gloves for the rest of my life wth! I wash my hands over 30 times a day because I just feel dirty and contagious. My hands have been peeling because of the over washing I got diagnosed in November. So it hasn't been more than 4 months that I've had this. ( I haven't been consistent with the acyclovir either its just hard to take everyday) I hate myself I feel like I'm a walking infection. I've been taking care of my baby nephew and I'm afraid to even touch him..And when I have touched him I soon remember i carry herpes and i start to overthink and beat myself up for touching him! this cant be life. I'm tired of everyone minimizing this when it clearly affects your physical & mental state I'M NOT OK!

Thank you for the response Grace, Yes I'm starting to think it's an abscess of some sort. It sucks because I am paranoid and I feel like any little thing is an Outbreak now. If it doesn't go away in the next few days I'm going to go to the GYN amd get it checked out and get a peace of mind. thank you again !

I'm trying to learn as much as i can I've learned that in some ppl outbreaks are rashes with no bumps. Also that some people don't even get blisters. For my 1st OB I got blisters. 2 weeks later I'm experiencing a bump under my skin that was red and very painful. Someone told me that's how her outbreaks are I at first thought it was an ingrown because i had experienced something similar in the past (except it wasnt painful then) but after talking to that other person I assumed mines was an OB too. Its been like 3 days with this under skin bump. Today I looked down there and it's not painful anymore but it looks like there's a tiny white head that if i were to squeeze it some puss or white stuff would come out. Does this sound like herpes ?? Last time I checked herpes didn't produce puss, just clear liquid Or could this just be like an infected ingrown Someone please help I'm trying to learn as much as I can And I'm trying not to stress

Hi Grace thank you for the lengthy response. Reading that made me feel a bit better. I feel like I learned alot

I just got diagnosed with HSV1 on my genitals on thursday. I'm truly devestated I was watching this lady on youtube and she was talking about the difference between prodome and shedding. She mentioned something that kinda scared me (more than I already am ) She said that outbreaks don't always look like cold sores or bumps on your genitals. That it could also be a feeling like body aches, rashes, itching, tingling. But I thought that's was what prodome was??? So how am I suppose to be more cautious and know if I'm having an outbreak if there's no actual real physical symptoms like sores Ugh all off this keeps getting more confusing by the minute. She also mentioned to not have sex before or after your period because you're shedding or something like that... I'm so overwhelmed I HATE THIS!!!!