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my little lady cavern is starting to feel much better today. Hopefully, if this was an outbreak, it will be a predictor for the rest of my future outbreaks if any occur.

Thank you so much. This really means so much to me, and makes me feel a lot better.

HerryTheHerp: Thank you so much for this inspirational story. I am 99.9% sure that I am experiencing my first herpes OB and I just feel awful, emotionally and physically. Your story made me laugh and not cry for the first time in days. I don't have the slightest clue who gave this to me because since my last std test i have had 2 new partners, but i now know that i most likely was not even tested for herpes before so i could have had this for a lot longer than a week. I wish you the best with your lady friend, i wish i knew who gave this to me, so i at least knew one other person going through this :(

I suppose it is just a skin condition, and plenty of my friends have cold sores.....I just don't think they will understand that it is the same thing because I got it from having sex and they have probably had it (at a different site) since childhood. I feel like I am being punished, and I am not even a religious person.

Is there anything you know of that I can do right now to ease the discomfort i am feeling down there? Since I still don't get the results back until Friday and can't get treated until then. But I am starting to accept that I do have herpes and am starting to cope emotionally. The physical pain makes it hard to not think about. I am still applying a cream twice daily for the yeast infection that I got the day i went to see the doctor, but it doesn't do much throughout the day especially since it burns sometimes when I pee. Sorry for the details, but I am looking for maybe some home remedies or things that will make me feel physically better.

thank you both for the messages of support. You are right about the guy who called me disgusting, he is the one with the problem. I just fear that in the future men will have a hard time seeing past this because of all the stigma attached to the word HERPES. someone will truly have to love me for my personality which is so rare in this day and age of superficiality and culture of sex sex sex sex in every movie, song, and tv show. if it is so common why do i feel so alone?

I am a 20 year old female looking for support and encouragement. I had sex last friday and on the next sunday I had what I thought was a yeast infection. I got the medicine and the symptoms mostly went away, but then a week after having sex i noticed a painful spot on my lady parts right near the opening. I immediately freaked out and looked at it in a mirror a million times, and all i could see was some redness. I went to a gyno immediately with my mom, the only person who knows, and got tested for herpes. the doc said it didn't look like a typical herpes outbreak, just a little cut, and I got more medicine for the yeast infection which she said I did have....however, now two days have passed since i visited a doctor and the spot has gotten worse. I THINK i can see tiny red bumps and it is painful, not only because the doctor aggressively swabbed it for a culture. It burns if any pee touches it when i go to the bathroom, but aside from that there is some general discomfort around the area and it SUCKS. I don't know what else this could be, and since i have had sex in my life (as most 20 year olds have) I know how entirely possible it is that I do have herpes. I can't get treated for the symptoms until I get diagnosed this friday, if the test shows up any conclusive results since I got tested when I first felt it. My mom tells me to stop crying until I know for sure but I just feel like I know, what else could this be??? Herpes is so common and I know that my chances of being all right are very low. Who will want me now?? Who would ever want me when there are so many girls out there without herpes?? I was recently called disgusting, a slut, and a pig who can't keep her legs closed, by a former sex partner because he found out I also had sex with other guys he knows. If he or anyone else knew about this.....they would really think I am disgusting then. I am changing my ways of casual sex mostly because I never ever want to have sex again knowing that I could infect someone with something so shameful and embarassing. I am thinking of joining a herpes-only dating site because then at least I can find someone like me and I won't have to have "the talk" because all i ever wanted was to find love and now I have made it so much harder for myself by coming in contact with this infection.

WCSDancer: Thank you so much for the support and reassurance. I know I can live with this and will be ok, the initial shock is probably the hardest part. Maybe one day I can even see this as a good thing, although that seems hard to imagine right now.

I would really love to have an H buddy. Just found out a day ago that I have this and I am having a really hard time dealing with it. The only person who know is my mom. I am female, 20 years old, from the NY area. I would like to talk to another woman but i welcome males as well!

I too am in the same boat...I think i am experiencing my first outbreak and I don't know what to do or who to go to. I already saw a doctor and got tested but it will take a week to get the results back and i am 99.9% sure that i do have genital herpes. My mom is the only person who knows and she tells me to stop crying about it until I know for sure but i just can't help it. I feel disgusting. I don't even know who i got this from, I am a 20 year old single college student. I was considered desirable at my school. And now i feel disgusting and like no one will ever want me again unless I meet someone who already has this disease. I can't ever imagine telling a guy I like, I already have enough trouble finding love after my 3.5 year relationship ended and now it will be even more difficult. All I want is to be normal again. I know it isnt the worst thing in the world and that it is common but it would change my dating life forever and plus the discomfort is so bad! I can't even begin to get any treatment until my diagnosis comes back on friday and i fear the worst. Someone please help me cope with this. The only thing that makes me feel better at this point is trolling the internet on sites like this!!