Alone and Sad

Thank you for your kind words of support. I really appreciate it.

I don’t remember being tested for HSV1 in my mouth at the time I had my initial outbreak genitally 3 yrs ago. Last summer I asked my doctor about having a test to see if I had it orally and he said I would have to get off acyclovir for an extended period of time because that would effect the test and I wasn’t willing to risk having another outbreak genitally. I can tell you that I’ve never had a cold sore/fever blister in my life. That is correct that I gave him oral with my saliva. I also had him wash up right after. I don’t know if that helps but I figured it couldn’t hurt. Isn’t there still a possibility that I could pick up oral HSV1 from kissing him? He does have a history of cold sores. Of course, I have antibodies and take acyclovir every day so maybe not.

Thank you for the response. That’s what I was afraid you were going say, that yes he could get it. He’s not going to hear the part about a very small risk. I feel really guilty because the truth is he was a little drunk at the time, I was not. It was selfish of me to do it when I knew he wasn’t thinking straight. It just felt so good being touched, held for the first time in 3 years. I was irresponsible and put him in jeopardy. if he gets it I’ll never be able to forgive myself. I don’t know about you but my experience with telling people that I have herpes has not been good. Everyone thinks of it as a dreaded disease that never goes away and it is. Herpes itself hadn’t been a problem, it’s the stigma, the judging, the assumption that you are promiscuous. I wouldn’t wish having to go through that on anybody and what did I do, I exposed one of my best friends to that very thing. 😔

I’ve had GHSV1 for 3 years and have taken Acyclovir 2x a day from the beginning. I’ve never had any problem taking the drug. In 3 yrs I’ve only had 1 other outbreak and that was about 2 months ago. I got sick with diverticulitis and was having a lot of trouble with nausea so I stopped taking my meds. Within a week, I had an out break. Acyclovir was apparently doing its job. I am back on it.

I’ve had GHSV1 for 3 years. I take acyclovir every day. Besides the initial outbreak I’ve only had 1 other outbreak. I have a friend that I’ve known for a long time and lately we’ve been kissing but not much else. He’s afraid of getting my herpes but the other night he wanted me go down on him, no protection. Now he’s kind of freaking out. (BTW, he has a history of cold sores.) Is it a given that if I have it genitally I have it in my mouth as well?