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Thank you so much for your replies, and it made me feel a world better about the situation at hand, if it is at all possible could this post be deleted? I took a picture of what you said and I am going to be less hard on myself from now on. I still try to educate people when I am approached, and I also try to disclose as early as possible. Also, I hate that you have been in a similar situation as well, it is very nerve-racking to say the least and scary! I've learned my lesson now though. My condition has ended up improving a lot, but I still will end up seeing the obgyn asap. I'm already in the process of getting therapy and I am going to look into getting regular body massages, either swedish or deep tissue, just to help with stress release. Overall, I would like to thank you so much for your kind words, it really means a lot to me. Please take care! 🧡

Thank you so much! Your post really made me feel a lot better. I'm going to call my OBGYN next week, I'm still bleeding but it isn't as heavy. Also, when I was having an outbreak and sores were visible we didn't have sex at all. He did ask to see the outbreak, I guess he was curious, and to me that was a teaching moment. But even then the lesions weren't BAD it was barely noticeable but I felt the bumps and lumps. You really helped me feel a lot better about the situation at hand though. Thank you so much. I just didn't think he would get so cold after we were intimate, it just hurts. Plus we filmed some intimate things with my face, which I did consent to, but I didn't think he'd just drop me like that. I just got to learn to deal with/be okay with the consequences of my actions. Some of the things he would say would make me feel like I was manipulated, like I had to prove myself to him, it was the weirdest thing ever but I will try to find a therapist soon. I'm sorry for all of the word jumble. I don't really have family to talk about this sort of thing with.

TL;DR: I'm worried that I may have gave someone HSV2 through period blood because I had an outbreak two weeks prior to having protected sex. During the time of the outbreak I was constantly taking valacyclovir 500mg twice daily and by the time my period came on and we had sex, there were no more symptoms or signs of an outbreak. He used a condom and wearable condom at one time the first time we had sex. The second time we had sex he only used a condom. Hello everyone, I am pretty new here. I have had herpes since 2018. I am a single woman and I was seeing someone up until this past Wednesday. The first time we had sex was about 2 or 3weeks prior to Wednesday and he had cut my clitoris area with his fingernails and I ended up having a really bad outbreak, almost as bad as the first outbreak but not quite so bad. Anyway, I was taking medication immediately before we had sex for the first time(probably a week or two prior) and even after we had sex, to clear up the outbreak. Fast forward to the week of July 31- Aug 6, and it's pretty much gone! No outbreak or symptoms. I don't see any sores or anything. So that following Saturday I got the bright idea to put a Boric acid suppository up there to make sure everything is good to go but then I started bleeding really bad and it basically kick started my period. This past Wednesday we hung out and had sex, we ALWAYS use protection, and he always washes up afterwards. We had sex twice and the first time he wore a condom and a wearable condom on top of that condom, the second time he just wore a condom. After both instances he washed up very good and that was it. But then I started to overthink things even though I had been treating the initial outbreak with valacyclovir 500mg for around two weeks. When my "period" came on there weren't any symptoms of HSV2 and I had already been taking the medication so I was just wondering is it possible he could have contracted it through the period blood? I cried very hard in the bathroom at his home at the thought of him getting it, and we broke things off mutually because I told him the stress of him possibly contracting it made me very anxious. He said I shouldn't have asked to have sex if I would be this worried about the risk but I honestly I just wanted to give him oral and that's it. Things just escalated very fast. I made sure I took every precaution I could, and even now, I haven't taken any pills because my body feels fine, usually there's tingling and I can't walk because my nerves get VERY sensitive. But I can run 3miles just fine now. I took pills for two weeks and even got a refill on a bottle because I took pills twice a day. Today I tried to text him but he didn't respond and I just feel like shit honestly. Prior to us even meeting up I disclosed to him and he knew my status(this is weeks before we even had sex), I never kept it a secret from him at all. Now I feel depressed and sometimes even suicidal because I really just don't want to pass it on to anyone. I keep trying to contact him but I think he's scared he might have it as well. I don't know what to do now because he's not responding. I at least want to know that he's alright before we cut each other completely off. I just feel like shit. How long does it take to show symptoms? When I initially got herpes my symptoms showed the very next day. I hope he does tell me if he does or doesn't have it but maybe I just need to give him space? I apologize for this being so long.