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  1. Okay. I was unsure because he said this. And I have not found any research backing it. As I am obsessed with research
  2. Hello. I haven't been here in a number of years. I have a few questions, as I was pondering I knew this was where I needed to go. So I am in my first trimester of pregnancy, and I wasnt aware of this, but my doctor asks me if I had any outbreaks. I told him I had just got over one.. Well this pregnancy is taking me for a toll I have had a lot of OB's so far. Any who he told me that having an outbreak during the first trimester was very dangerous. I was only aware that an outbreak during delivery could pose a threat. I have been trying to do some home research, and I can't find a single study going back regarding it posing a threat during the first trimester. I am confused buddies. Please help!
  3. It's okay I have had 3 outbreaks in the past month. This one that I am getting over right now has been the worst. We are all are great people no matter what. Keep your head up ! Remember yoga, good food, and hot baths. (: That always helps me.
  4. I am pretty sure there are plenty of new people on here, and I haven't been on here in a while. Well hello I am Megan, and I found out I have Genital Herpes about a year, and a half ago. WCSDancer2010 , was definitely a great help when giving me advice, and coming on here being able to help others definitely helped me a lot as well. Here we go.. It was right before I turned 20 when I discovered I had Genital herpes. I remember talking to my boyfriend on the phone ( we were dating long distance) I found something that hurt on my vulva. The only thing going through my head is omg omg omg, this better not be what I think it is. I told my boyfriend that I was worried, I was constantly worried. So I went in for a check up, and the doctor couldn't see anything. She did a swab that came back negative. So I went down to get my blood drawn. I remember waiting around constantly, and my anxiety being out the roof. About a week later I got a call saying that everything came back normal, and that I didn't have herpes. I was so excited. I just was so glad, and so I went out to have some celebration. The next day I got home, and I got another call they said " We misread your test results, and you came back positive for HSV-2." Well ask you can imagine by that point I was balling and crying my eyes out. I thought I was the worst thing that ever happened. I finally told my boyfriend, and he said that it didn't change the way he felt about me. Also I was on here almost all day, because reading peoples stories, and talking to other people who understood was very comforting. I may not be with that guy then, but that helped me realize that I wouldn't always be patronized for my condition. I learned to live with it, and I have learned to make the best of things. Honestly getting HSV, was probably one of the best things that could have happened to me. I was using all sorts of drugs, badly. I thought I was having the time of my life, but HSV has made me be more conscientious about my body, and what I am doing to it. I have been with the guy I am with now, since August. He is amazing, and accepts me. He helps me grow, and I am learning that there is a lot more to life to be happy. Every day that I wake up breathing is a wonderful day. I am so glad that I am still alive, and that what happened to me could have been a lot worse. It has honestly saved me from myself, and I just want to let you all know that it is going to be okay. That every day you have something worth living, and fighting for. That you are a strong individual, and that you can make it through anything. This is just another stepping stone, that believe it or not will help you see the good in things. I just want you all to keep your head up in the air, and never EVER give up !
  5. @WCSDancer2010 I miss you as well. I am doing great. (: Getting ready to get our own place soon. <3 I have been staying in the house, and watching over our little hamsters.
  6. Exactly. For a while there I was able to just ignore my outbreaks. It was nothing new to me at all. The moments I get the worst ones, I am not able to think clearly at all. I am not abble to make rational decisions.
  7. I can honestly say YES I have been angry, sad, and every emotion up above. I was angry because whoever had done this and gave it to me, when I found out they knew they had it they didn't tell me. The least you could have done was be honest. I was sad because I had this THING that I could never get rid of... but in the end I was happy, because I was just glad it wasn't something like HIV or something far more serious. I was glad because come to think of it, if someone really liked me well enough then they could take all of me, and this was simply a way of weeding out the bad... Every now and then I do feel anger. I feel anger because it has been messing with my nerves, and has been causing great pains. Some days I can not perform the things that I was able to perform at one point. It is not something to be mad about, it is something we can not change, but we can learn to accept.
  8. I am going to the doctor tomorrow to see if I can find a therapist. I was so excited to start working. I was so happy for myself, and then it just felt like it was all falling down on me. Not really my work or anything, but just my own emotions and feelings. I need to have someone who can help me get through these things, because I can not allow them to get in the way of me working, or going to school, or just anything to do with period.
  9. How has everyone been doing? I haven't had a computer to log in here on, and I have tried on my phone, but it keeps pooping out on me. Anyways, I have been good, and I have been bad. I finally got a job. It's a temporary job, but its something. I have been feeling better about everything lately, because whether I am working temporary or not I am actually doing something better for myself. For the longest time I didn't have a job, and I was making every excuse not to get a job. It is not that I am lazy, because when I work here I work my butt off. I work very hard, and every day. I feel like I am actually being productive.. I was hoping to get a permanent job at this place, because it is a temp to hire agency... I didn't even get an interview, and that is when things started going downhill for me.. I started showing up less and less, because I had high hopes. Maybe a little to high. I was stressing out, working my butt off to show them that I would be a perfect candidate. I would be perfect for them. && if I didn't show up for work that was because I carpool, and those were days that my driver wasn't going in for work. I don't have a car, so I am saving up for one. Well I haven't been to work at all this week. I am depressed, and stressed. I am having the worst OB that I have ever had, so that is not making things any better. Actually its making things even worse. I have been barely able to walk lately because I am having pains in my legs. Usually I would just work through those pains, because I love my job, and I love being there, but lately I just haven't felt the strength to even get out of bed. I am going to a doctors appointment tomorrow to maybe get a referral to a therapist, or maybe a counselor. They are pretty much the same thing. My mom is in Germany so I barely get to talk to her. I barely see my dad any more. I don't really have friends any more, because I kicked everyone out of my life. They were all drug users, and not worth being around. I have been battling myself not to do drugs, which is very hard. Any of you that know me know that I have a year and nine months sober now. Though I wouldn't count drinking, because I have been drowning myself in alcohol lately. It's the opiates that I am scared about. I need to get out of this mess, and I just don't know how to do it... /: I want to stay in this forum again, because this place gave me hope. I was helping people, which is something that I love to do, but sometimes it is the other way around. Sometimes the people who come off as the most helpful, need the most help themselves.. I would also love to hear from everyone and hear how you guys are doing in your journey..
  10. Thanks everyone. It is just a start, but i finally have my foot in the door.
  11. I just stepped up my life. To a whole nother' level. I am super happy with myself, and I think this is going to help me in the long time. Anyone who knows me knows, that I had a history of drug abuse, nothing new. Well a year and 5 months off heroin, and 2 months off pot, and I landed me my first job! I am super happy. I have my first legit job. How does this help me with herpes issues, it doesn't? I rarely think about my herpes. I am a working class human being. I can do it, and overcome a lot of things in life. So can you ! Get up be active, and make your life something worth while ! -Much Love Megan <3
  12. Yeah I am on suppressives when I am with my boyfriend, but he told me since it was giving me horrible sunburns that he would rather me not be on them.. because I don't want any more second degree sun burns. Lolol. But my boyfriend has to go get checked, because he thinks he has it. He has been taking l-lysine for a long time also.
  13. When I do have an OB I take 1500 mg of it a day. I get rid of the OB within two days.
  14. I take L-Lysine every day. 500 mg in the morning 500mg at night. My doctor would rather me be on L-Lysine. I don't consider it as a Suppressive, but the Amino acids in there help boost your immune system. They also have helped my immunities to H. With helping my immunities to other things. Such as I get sick frequently. I think that it is a great thing. It doesn't help like suppresives to lower the risk factor of transferring it to your partner, but it does help your body get immune to H, and I haven't had an OB in three months.
  15. xDD right ? I need to go get some more L-Lysine, but make sure that its L-Lysine.. Not just Lysine.
  16. L-Lysine is an Herbal Supplement. It is over the counter. I have found that they help me a lot more than the antivirals do. Considering that I am out in the sun ALL the time. The antivirals cause me to have blistering sun burns.
  17. Yes it is sad that people are misinformed. A lot of people tell me that it is gross that I have herpes, but most of them have cold sores. They don't know that what they have is HSV-1. It is not that bad, now that I have taken it in. We are trying to educate our people. I feel like we should all be educated about what WE HAVE, and what is going on around us. Like she said it is normal for it to hurt, because your skin is still healing. Luckily I never have gone through pain after an OB. Go on antivirals, or some L-Lysine. I take 1000 mg a day. It helps your immune system build up immunities. Not only to Herpes, but helps you support a healthy immune system period. I have had less OB's and have been getting sick less ever since I have been on L-Lysine.
  18. That guy was a jerk, and honestly I am pretty sure you are better than that. I hope so at least. I hope that you can take this time to realize what you would not do. I have been open and honest about my herpes to my boyfriends, or future boyfriends. && So far I am suprised to see that most of them don't take it as bad as I thought they would. The talk... it is not as bad any more. I am just like " So you know I have herpes, and if you would like to know more about it then I am willing to share the information I know with you." I am surprised at how well they take it, it is probably because of how my body language is. I hope that you can live an honest life. I was lied to also. I actually found out who it was who gave it to me. He admitted to me that it was him, and I told him that I forgave him. He never even appologized, but I still forgave him. The reason for that is because I have already got over all the hurt. I said the same thing. I said I hope you can be honest with any future partners unlike you were with me. I hope things start looking up for you, and I am sorry that this happened to you.
  19. Yeah, but I know for a fact I don't have HSV-1 I have GHSV-2. But I mean he is going to get checked.. He just has so much stuff to do. Like work and school.
  20. I miss you too girl. I am back in Washington state now.
  21. Wow. I mean seriously ? I don't know what to say to this. Just another reason why I do not like Fox News. Ugh. Poor boy.
  22. I disclosed to him before we even thought about being together. Him and I have been friends for a long time. Weird thing is he knows about some of my deepest darkest secrets..
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