Thank you for reply. Firstly a comment on another post I read, but couldn't see how to reply to. Someone was talking about getting herpes OB on her breasts and was really worried about recurrence. When I first contracted Herpes I also had it on my nipples - but with recent outbreak, this didn't recur.
Yes I could get the tests done, but am happy in mind that it was HSV1 - because I discussed the issue very thoroughly with my partner at the time. He had never had genital Herpes, but suffered quite regularly from Mouth cold sores. At time of my infection, he admitted that he had a very small mouth Herpes. He also had a beard, so small cold sore didn't show. He didn't know that the virus was passed on by physical contact (neither did I at the time.) The strange thing about it is though, I didn't pick it up on my mouth. During the next 20 years he has been very careful not even to kiss me if he has the tiniest of cold sores.
It is unfortunate that this virus makes you feel very unclean. If I have mouth ulcers, I don't feel this way - it must be to do with this very sensitive, private, intimate parts of our bodies which makes us feel this way. I didn't feel like it, when I contracted Herpes. Worried yes, and I realised straight away what it possibly was. So I read up about it, and also went to STD clinics both in France and where I live in UK. So psychologically why at 74 do I seem more upset. I understand, it's always upsetting. It is because in general I've been feeling quite vulnerable physically recently - increasing age is bringing problems. Then a new/old one arrived. I'll get over it.