I am almost 5 years into being married to my husband, he has cheated and I just got a positive result for HSV2 a few weeks ago. He has said he has not had an outbreak and can’t believe it. But I did, and I had no idea what I was experience would be this. I’m heartbroken and really struggling. I have dealt with so much from my husband that I have not deserved, but I always knew at the end of the day no matter what he did to me or said to me, I could always be true to myself and the person I am, but it feels like now he’s taken that from me as well. He has left me emotionally, mentally, and now physically damaged forever. I feel like it’s my fault because I should’ve left him before this could happen. I have just tried so hard to keep my family together. I feel like a failure and I feel like a victim of so many things because of him and I don’t want to feel that way. My doctor’s office gave me some information but not much. Just gave me 10 day course of antivirals, called me with positive results and said if an outbreak happens again call for a refill. The outbreak was so painful and I felt terrible with fever, I lost nearly 15 lbs in a week. I’m just trying so hard to feel better but I feel so low with no escape. I am still experiencing things that I don’t know are normal or what they mean because like I said, there wasn’t much talk about symptoms or what to expect. I definitely feel like the outbreak isn’t exactly over I feel far from normal. How long did your first one last? How do you know it’s going away? How do you keep them from coming back?
I do plan on consulting a therapist and possibly another doctor for more insight, but I really wanted to hear from people who understand.