I mustered all my energy last evening to get out and meet friends, at urging of sibling that knows how I am feeling, to try to Cheer up.
The convo somehow turned to STI and I had to sit there and watch 5 people sneer in disgust and horror at the thought of their teenager kids getting an STD. Words like “gross” and “eww” and “ugh” being tossed around.
as I sat there feeling the lingering pain of my second outbreak, I didnt say anything and just excused myself to the bathroom and left not long after.
I would never physically harm myself bc of my kids- i am all they have-but the reality is I am dead on the inside.
i am just grateful I am older when I got this so I wont have to live as long with this horror