A couple days ago I started experiencing extreme vaginal irritation and pain, with small bumps on and around my labia making it really painful to urinate. I thought it was just a really bad yeast infection, but I decided to go to the ER anyway just in case. I was examined and the room became troubled with worried expressions. Without telling me anything, the doctors went outside to deliberate. I waited for a bit until my doctor came back saying she was going to give me some meds right then and there. I asked her what was going on and she sat down. She told me that the other doctors think I have herpes. I was in disbelief, I asked if it could possibly be anything else and she said it might not be a possibility of anything else since the doctor who examined me is an expert in vaginal things. I cried, I broke down, I tried everything in my power to manifest that it wasn't herpes, even when I was getting blood test and my first round of antivirals and pain meds. The doctor came back in and we had a chat about what herpes was and how I was feeling and about the things I could do to sooth the extreme irritation. And since I had not gotten my test results back yet, I still had hope for it to be something else, something less permanent, less serious. I told the people I needed to tell about the possible diagnosis a little later, and I could not be anymore touched that everyone was so supportive and kind. But I was still in unbelievable pain(I still am) I was taking what I thought was anti virals until I realized that everything was just pain meds and I did not walk out the pharmacy with my important medication. This was two days after the diagnosis, which is today when I'm writing this. I have my anti virals now, but I have to wait for them to work over the course of 10 days until I clear up from these painful sores. I also just got the official HSV1 diagnosis today which was disheartening to hear, but all I can hope for right now is to heal quickly and not have to deal with burning urination anymore. But I'm not sure how I am going to deal with the emotions of all this. I've already told all my partners to go get checked. I'm really tired, I have no appetite(which is not like me, I'm a real foodie), and im full of medication. I need advice, support, a friend, anything to help me get through this.