devilsorchid

Yeah. I got the swab. It hurt lol. I possibly got in the summer from someone I thought loved me and I thought I loved. It's been over a month since the initial out break now. I'm doing much better. But it was odd to me that it took so long for me to have an outbreak when it usually would appear two weeks after

A couple days ago I started experiencing extreme vaginal irritation and pain, with small bumps on and around my labia making it really painful to urinate. I thought it was just a really bad yeast infection, but I decided to go to the ER anyway just in case. I was examined and the room became troubled with worried expressions. Without telling me anything, the doctors went outside to deliberate. I waited for a bit until my doctor came back saying she was going to give me some meds right then and there. I asked her what was going on and she sat down. She told me that the other doctors think I have herpes. I was in disbelief, I asked if it could possibly be anything else and she said it might not be a possibility of anything else since the doctor who examined me is an expert in vaginal things. I cried, I broke down, I tried everything in my power to manifest that it wasn't herpes, even when I was getting blood test and my first round of antivirals and pain meds. The doctor came back in and we had a chat about what herpes was and how I was feeling and about the things I could do to sooth the extreme irritation. And since I had not gotten my test results back yet, I still had hope for it to be something else, something less permanent, less serious. I told the people I needed to tell about the possible diagnosis a little later, and I could not be anymore touched that everyone was so supportive and kind. But I was still in unbelievable pain(I still am) I was taking what I thought was anti virals until I realized that everything was just pain meds and I did not walk out the pharmacy with my important medication. This was two days after the diagnosis, which is today when I'm writing this. I have my anti virals now, but I have to wait for them to work over the course of 10 days until I clear up from these painful sores. I also just got the official HSV1 diagnosis today which was disheartening to hear, but all I can hope for right now is to heal quickly and not have to deal with burning urination anymore. But I'm not sure how I am going to deal with the emotions of all this. I've already told all my partners to go get checked. I'm really tired, I have no appetite(which is not like me, I'm a real foodie), and im full of medication. I need advice, support, a friend, anything to help me get through this.