Lostboy207

Hi everyone, this is my first post and I am really glad I found this community. I’ll try and make this as quick as possible.. I recently broke up with a girl I was seeing for 6 months, who cared about me deeply and accepted my HSV2 status but I just didn’t see it working long term and slowly became less interested. To make a long story short, things started out very fast, we had a lot of sex and spent every night together. She didn’t want to use condoms so I obliged because she said they made her have a reaction, 6 wks later I tested positive for HSV2 and she claims she does not have it. I’m not saying she does but it seems like a pretty big coincidence to me. The relationship continued and she accepted my status, we started to not get along but due to my HSV2 status, I was scared to leave and risk being alone for the rest of my life while facing rejection for my status. We’ve now been broken up for over a week and initially I was proud of myself for getting out of the relationship and trusting my gut.. now I am spiralling feeling alone and wondering if I made a huge mistake walking away from someone who accepted my status. The relationship was not healthy for either of us but I do feel like I miss her.. I’m just wondering if anyone has gone through similar experiences as my future feels dim in terms of sex and or a future relationship. I’d like to be single for a while and have casual sex but this whole disclosure thing just makes me feel like that is going to be an impossible feat. appreciate any help. thx